Saturday, April 30, 2005

Birthday's party..........

My good buddy birthday is on may 1st ....yes the labour day.... so ngam rite...the whole world celebrate with him...hhaha ...
Since last year , he started to say that he want to hold his birthday party in 'red box' ....(he like to sing alotz)
Hahaha...so this year he really did and is today...However , i cant go ... additional mathematics tuition is more important than him....hahaha ...no lar....joking only...friend is more important...but i didn't go also...
He also invite us to his house tomorow night...Hmmmmmm...
but i thinking to go or not to.... My daddy lor....yesterday suddenly said want to go Cameron Highland... But i don't want to miss my additional mathematics tuition ler....so i decided not to go with them...Problems come then.... My parents not going to allow me to stay at home alone , that is too dangerous for a girl like me....
So mom arranged me to go tuition as normal then go to my aunt house ....not too bad.... i am here now....
but if i want to go my good buddy birthday's party , i will need my cousin 's help ... so i thinking not to go... although my best friend's mom offered me that she will come and fetch me...i will just think bout it....
My best friend did offer me to stay with her ...but not so nice lorrr... i long time din c my cousin d also...
I have choice here, go to his party with my best friend and stay over night with her or i still go the party ...ask my cousin to send me go and back....hmmm not a bad idea but the next morning he or she will need to send me home again ....that is so mafan.... The best choice is don't go his party ....just stay at my aunt house... Dunno arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......... haiya ask my cousin 1st lar...if they can fetch me then all my problem settle...
Really don wan to disturb my best friend's family .......
The conclusion is ......my buddy very mafan ...why born on such 'nice' day when people want to go holiday...

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Cooking contest!!!

Hahaha...look at the title ...don't think i join that cooking competition..
I don't know anything bout cooking... Is my friends ...my two best friends and my so call " tailo "...My "tailo" last year got champion in the cooking contest ... greatttt rite??? hahaha..but this year i think my two best friends are definitely better than him...coz they got creativity ^.^
This year they must cook fried rice... "tailo" one quite ordinary only...pineapple fried rice lor.. I like my best friends idea...they put cheese in the eggs and fried it...
However atlast...because of some problem they didn't manage to do it like their plan....but they still did a grrrreat job!!! Atleast i think better then my "tailo"
I saw them really enjoyed the contest....quite admire them also...coz i don't how to cook mar....Look like i need to ask my mom to teach me d...
Hahaha...but i think she will kick me out from the kitchen.....
Want to tell my best friends...I like your fried rice...can cook only for me one person or not ???( selfish gal) hehehe

Happy for a friend!!

I have a friend... last time not quite close with him also ..
This year we are classmates... actually last time also know got the appearence of this guy existing in this world...but not friend mar....
So this year got talk a bit lor... He broke with his girlfriend long time ago..if i not mistaken ..is last year.... Didn't know bout his n his gf 's things..since not close also...
His nickname sometimes really sad ... haih...still missing that gal lor...
what to do??? love is sooooo ......i also don't know how to say...
So long d lar...he still don't want to forget her..he force himself not to forget...
Every relationship got the happy memory....he said he don't want to forget it...
I understand..."human without a past is not a complete human"
However it is , i tried to pull him out of that ...i know nothing much i can do..
I am very happy when he told me he had think bout my words and he will try to forget her....^-^Not lar i like him or wat... but really happy coz a friend jump out from those suffer... To me , he is like making himself suffer ...force himself not to forget...
I hope he don't purposely forget her also, coz i know that method never work....
It will only make you remember that person more and deeper in your heart...
Just wish that he will really find the way out....

Don't study????

Something really weird happen in my house....
Normally this is wat u can hear when there is a student in a family
"Hey....gal ( or boy) is study time, switch off the tv!!!"
I think some of them will like ...
"mom ..please...just few more minutes..then the show will end..Let me finish it.."
But in my house ...u will hear the different things going on....
"Gal...why u study so hard? Haiya..relax....No need to study till so late..gal"
"I oso din force u to study...ur exam still far..just relax..."
Weird rite??? When i am so willing to study ....my mom call me no need to study so hard -.-"
When i was sitting for my UPSR...i am a lazy student...my mom kept calling me to study harder...but i din..
When i was sitting for my PMR...my sister played the role of my mom...
And now...i going to sit for SPM !!!! n my mom call me to relax...n my sis???
She is now in National Service....no comment from her.....
Haih..... Want to study also cannot....Don't want to study one ( my younger bro n sis) ...my mom keep forcing them to study.........
So funny rite???Don't study???
Hahaha...actually she don't really know what i do at night.... I most of the time online and chat with my friends...Study????
Emmmm.....can finish my homework also very happy d lor...but that never ever happen in my form 5 life yet....
However it is ...i really need to start my study ...or not next week mid year exam ..i going to fail my paper...

YUNA-ffx

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Should always remember the happy moment

I oso duno when d lar...only remember got few days , i kept thinking wat is my character in others people eyes? good or bad or childish ...? I tried to search for my weakness and my bad attitude... This is some of my conclusion:
  • moody - i oso duno y, but my mood really can change immediately coz of some small little things....
  • selfish - i found myself sometimes quite selfish ..bout wat? i oso can't remember now...^-^
  • stupid - i very easy get cheated by other people..got some example..but can't tell u ..hehehee
  • blur - i always the blur wan in a conversation, coz i duno wat they talking
  • bad temperate - i can b very easy get angry oso..so don kacau me
  • bad mood - if i in a bad mood , u will c me sitting alone, doing my own things..wat i say that time will hurt people..so sorry to dos people dat i hurt
  • never think twice - i always do thing follow my heart, got good and bad..but mostly regret after dat..
  • no commen sense - this one i think my family know better, i always get scolded by my mom coz asking stupid commen sense question.

Forget is when d..i asked him why he said he felt uncomfortable when the time he with me..and the answer i don't think anyone will guess it right.....

He told me he duno when he said that and he don't even remember he said that before!!!sigh....

but one thing he said made me think alotz...He said he don't remember he said that before...dat's means he had forget bout the sad moment..he said we should remember the happy moment...( something like this lar)

Ya...why i so stupid go think dos sad things? Remember the happy moment is better...

I knoe i stil got alotz of weakness..so just tell me if u got the chances..thx

I will continue..........

After discussed with my mom and asked opinion from my friends, finally i make i my mind.... i will continue my piano lesson till 2 months before spm...
Think of SPM is making me crazy...
still left 197 days to spm....and i not yet start my revision...dat is bad ...
so i want to force myself more now...i have too ,or not my result will be ......

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Why i so blur????

I think something wron with me today. Normally when my friends want to put their hands on my shoulder i will escape before they do so.
However, today i don't know why i am not alert bout it.
When i was talking to my 'heng dai', a guy put his hand on my shoulder.
I just turned , looked at him once then continue to talk with my friends.
Then i turned back, cause i felt something wrong.Why is't his hand on my shoulder? i scolded him. My friends started to talk nonsence bout it.
After that , we went to the exhibition. This time even worst..
He did it again and i din't even realise it.. Till he laught only i realise..
Oh my god! How could i become so blur? I normally quite alert bout this type of things....
Maybe because i have not enough sleep yesterday...
And i still don't understand why not only boys but girls also like to put their hands on my shoulder...Is't because i'm short , so they can do it easily?

Thursday, April 14, 2005

All over.....

Today my group did the english oral, dat mean we finished all the oral test....Yahoo!!!!
yes , dis time we oso went out and just talk wat we like...
and our topic is .."should teenager's couple"
2 of us support the topic and another 2 against the topic...
hahaha ..... it is so much of fun..... we did laught non stop again between the oral....
Time is flying so fast.... i felt is like a few second den we finished our oral d....
In the oral test, WP n me acted dat v got bf n the other to are against us....
we like really having fight ...but where got pp fight n kept laughing wan rite?
Hehehe ....however it is , now we no need to worry bout oral test anymore

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Should i stop????????

Today i got my piano lesson again....when ever this day come, i will b not happy...
not i don't like to play piano... i love to play piano....but i don't like my piano teacher...
She is my 2nd piano teacher... but i like my 1st piano teacher...
My 1st piano teacher teached me since i was only 5 years old...
I like her so much...she is the one who teached me how to enjoy the moment when i play piano..
she is the one who teach me how to love the songs....however,she marry to a american when i was 12 years old...so i change to this 2nd piano teacher and stopped my japanese class( she is my japanese teacher too)
From the 1st day , i start to dislike this teacher...she is not so fierce then my 1st piano teacher but...something is wrong... i still dislike her.... she only concentrate on my piano exam pieces..
and i don really like dos songs... okay some i did like it ...but dat is only when my 1st piano teacher said she heard another student played the song ...so i decided to feel the song and play it well.... some bcoz of my private reason so i like it.....
However , now i starting to hate my piano teacher.... i don like dos songs...how u want me to play it romantic ?( the song's title is Romantic) when i am so tire , sleepy and don have the love in my heart anymore..... i noe i just playing dos notes... i not playing dos melody...and yes ....she felt it..
but wat can i do? i really don hav such mood ....
I'm thinking to stop my piano...but now i'm in grade 8 .. the last grade for me if i din further study music... emmmm.... I keep thinking the main purpose i play piano...
When i was young , i play it coz i like it ...but wat about now? i play my piano wit hate... i don like to feel that... coz hate is the worst feeling in the world....
Anyone can tell me.... should i stop my piano?

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Dreams.........

Today morning i dream of something bout him again.....
is totally shit..... in the dream i trying to find him but i can't...
that feeling is soooo bad.... n every body like hate me coz i break with him....
is so bad........ i woke up n my heart was still like worried where is he....
is totally shitttttttt!!!!!!!!!!
This is not the worst....got once i dreams that he got a new girl friend...
and i felt so hurt n my heart was so pain and i woke up early in the morning...
Is already over n my stupid heart still pain.....arrrrrrrrrrr
I really hate my self.........stupid......
Please don't have this type of dreams anymore....

Friday, April 08, 2005

I WAN TO GROW TALL!!!!

Today we did the measurement for our weight, height and eye sight...
Haih.... i DIn grow tall at all for the pass one year!!!!
And i lose my weight ...i drop 3.5 kg!!! May b i should happy about that ....but i am not ..
coz if i want to grow tall i must hav the weight also...i don want to b under weight....
I think the measurement got problem ...coz got pp bcome shorter...how could it be....
it is only one year and we are in the growing stage...not the old people stage...
Hahaha...but some of them under weight ...they need to gain weight...
I am quite lucky bout that ...Although i lose my weight ...i still in the balance line....
Hahaha...so i no need to worry bout it...just i need to Grow tall!!!
I wan to b taller ...i dislike people always touch my head and call me shorty....
I 154.5 cm .... not really short also mar...isn't?

Stupid school!!!!!!!!!!

Today we had a photo section....we took class photo..
Early in the morning..when we took the picture..everyone was so exciting..kept laughing ..smiling... all sort of idea and possing they did....coz is free style.....
However ..the school disciplin teacher was not happy bout that...she want us to retake the photo.
The reason she gave us is the prefect must wear their blazer.....
Haih....everyone was so unhappy to hear that....When we took the 2nd time...we were not happy I can felt that the laughing and smile is so fake...
Why can't the school just let it be... it is already the last year for us in this school...
All of us also thought that the 1st photo is the best photo...coz is the most natural smile...is come from our heart..and show wat we feel....
the 2nd picture is sooooooo fake.........

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Thanks to my Dear...

Already very late...Although i am very tire d, i still need to pack my bag... When i was checking my fail, i saw my piano exam assessment record..I have keep it for a long time since i got back from my piano teacher.. i didn't really sit down and read the comment gave by the examiner... Since i had notice it that time, so i decided to take few minutes to read the comment....
My final mark is quite ok...atleast get a pass...left few marks to get a merit... My piano teacher was not quite happy with that coz she think i should get the merit...
When come to the 3rd piece..i read through few times...the examiner said i played it with rich of love...and it was the highest mark i got among the 3 pieces....
I went back to my memory of last year october...ya....that time i fall in love ..i love him...
When i was playing the song in the exam.... my mind was thinking bout him...
However it is .. now we already break.. no matter what it is ..i want to thanks him...
bcoz of him...i grow up a lotz.. i start to feel the songs i play.... i learn a lotz...
Thanks to him....

Oral test!!!

Today we had oral test..actually we should prepare it already.. coz one of our member not around for few days ..so we can't discuss about the oral..
Today all of us are there so they decided to do in today without any preparation!!!
We just thinked for the point for a few periods then we really just walk out and did our oral test..
Our topic is quite intersting..is about rape...There are 4 of us in a team...one acted as police..one is the doctor..one victim n me as a host!!! We just simply said out what is on our mind... The 'victim' is a optimist..kept laughing... It is suppose to be a very serius topic in our plan n the audience should be the one who laughing...haihhhh... However our classmates were busy doing their homework ...only few of them were listening to our oral test...quite dissapointed..
But i'm proud of my team mates , they really did a gggrreat job.. Hahaha..however it is our bm oral test is over!!!! But english oral test is next week.....haih...so need to think of some intersting topic again..By the way , it sure will be a lots of fun , coz i know my team mates got lot of crazy ideas...

Monday, April 04, 2005

Poor little doggie!

Tomorow my sister will go back to the national service camp..so my sister want to eat some pork since in the camp you can't get any ...On the way, we saw something very cruel....
A car drove over a little doggie!!!! I can't see it clearly, but i saw the poor little doggie jumping coz of pain ... as my dad describe the dog head became flat..n the little doggie jumping coz of pain n it will die on the road..How cruel is the driver... how could the driver just drove over the little doggie..if he or she drive carefully, the little doggie may be will still alive . Although is only a doggie which don't have owner, but is still a life.. Those who have pets..Please treat ur little pet with more care n love... they are also a living things..they have feeling too . Just that we don't understand their languege..

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Lonely night

Haih....tonight is so bored...coz most of them need to go to'visit' thier ancestors.. only few friends online n chat... really miss my friends alotz ...
i'm so thanks god that my grandparents are still healthy... or not i may be don have time to sit infront the computer n writing this... my mother side grandparents had pass away few years ago ..Dunno y ? when my mom's dad pass away , i was a primary standard 2 kid.When my mom's mother pass away, i was a secondary form 2 student... Y all is 2? so coincident....
However is it..i really hope my healthy grandparents will maintain their health..
i can't afford to lose them... I still remember the night i thought that one day ....both of them will also leave us ... i cried the whole night... the next day ...my eyes are just like a gold fish...
The lucky things is ...i wear spec..so it is not so obvious ... Let us appriciate our love one when we can.... don't get regret when they leave us one day.... bcoz it mayb the next moment..

ahhhh...Finally i did it!!!

When the 1st time i saw my friend,B did a blog...i was so impressed..
Let me just introduce a bit bout my self..i 'm a normal girl in secondary school...
Got lotz of loving n caring friends... n the teacher i like n i hate ...
Hate my school n love it at the same time...
Hate the rules that is nonsences to me...
Love it coz i got lotz of friends in school....
So i still love my school.... i had 2 friends that very close with me.. we go to school together..go tuition together.... may be i face them more then my own family members..haha
they r such a nice friends to have ... if is not them i dunno wat will happen to me... may be i will b a different person now.... i want to say thanks to them.....THANKS YOU....can u all hear it?