I miss u

I'm missing someone... and the feeling is so strong that i can't even ignore it.
I wish i could just have a word from him now. Even a 'hi' will do.
However, i guess I'll be disappointed tonight.

He is not my lover, not my brother, not my friends, not my partners.
He seems to be nobody.
No one know, he is special to me.

To me, he is my brother. A gift from God. I would like to share my every moment with him.

Brother, i miss u. I'm feeling sad without knowing why. My tears just can't hold anymore.
I need someone to support me.

Tonight, my heart has overtake my brain.

'Payment' to Ping

Just realise that i was being tag by ping long time ago( last year).. n i didn't notice.. sorry ya. She just told me when i said i had tagged her.. So this is what i owe u ping:

10 years ago, I ...
1) was a kid
2) was at primary school
3) still learning my piano
4) still look like a boy
5) 'am' very innocence

5 years ago, I ...
1) am a teenager
2) was studying in SMK USJ 12
3) just know my 'tailo'
4) learn the word 'banana'
5) am fat

1 year ago, I ...
1) was doing sam
2) was feeling stress
3) know one class of genius
4) just received SPM result , of coz satisfy
5) lost my self

Yesterday I ...
1) was awake till 6 am..
2) sleep at 6 am
3) doing math for the whole night ( i'm becoming a math freak)
4) listened to music
5) 'siao' already

5 most recent songs I've listened to...
1) Every heart -Boa
2) Dearest - Ayumi Hamasaki
3) Part of me- Ayumi Hamasaki
4) 那年夏天宁静的海-王心凌
5) 怀念- Jolin 蔡依林

5 Songs I know all the words to ...
1)All forget d looo.

5 Things I really Want
1) pass all my exam
2) get a baby grand piano
3) read more books
4) find back myself
5) my family to be safe n healthy

5 Things I should be doing ...
1) study
2) revision
3) sleep
4) shut down my computer
5) pack up my bag

5 Biggest Joy in my life...
1) is my friends
2) my family
3) fall in love
4) read
5) Music

5 people I tag ...
Ok lar. this time i won't be so bad anymore.. no name.. whoever want to be tag. tag urself lar har..

time to study..

2 AM in the morning

Okay. now is 2 am in the morning.. Gosh! Yes , i kena tag by JY. sigh~ shouldn't have check on ur blog lo. haha , no la. kidding. So there u go...

Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Ng Chin Ying
Birth Date: 13/2/89
Current Status: Single
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: Black

Layer 2: On the Inside
My Heritage: Chinese
My Fears: Unknown
My Weaknesses: Too sensitive or too insensitive sometimes, stupidity
My Perfect Pizza: No particular like

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thoughts waking up: What's the time now?
My bedtime: 10pm to 11pm normally . When near to exam or weekend, 1 to 2 am
My Most Missed Memory: Secondary school

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Group
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee: Both

Layer 5: Do You...
Smoke: No, i hate smokers.
Curse: In my heart. I hate to hear pp swear, esp those who like to swear in every sentence they speak.
Take a Shower: Of coz yes.
Have a Crush: yes
Go to School: yes
Want to Get Married: depends on fate.
Believe in Yourself: yes
You're a Health Freak: er.. not sure

Layer 6: In the Past
Drink Alcohol: yes. a bit lo...
Gone to the Mall: *faint.. yes lar
Been on Stage: Yes
Eaten Sushi: Yes.
Dyed Your Hair: No

Layer 7: Have You Ever...
Played a Stripping Game: No
Changed Who You Were to Fit In: never tot of it.

Layer 8: Age You're Hoping to...
Get Married: After 25

Layer 9: In a Guy
Best Eye Color: Black
Best Hair Color: Black
Short or Long Hair: short

Layer 10:
What You Were Doing
A Minute Ago: doing this tag
An Hour Ago: doing Maths
Four and a Half Hours ago: doing math
A Month Ago: sleeping
A Year Ago: Feeling stress of SAM life???

Layer 11: Finish The Sentences
I love: you
I feel: calm
I hate:smokers
I hide: my heart
I miss: someone
I need: more time

Layer 12: Tag 4 People
Sorry to
Thick frame ping
Jun Jun
Wait. i can't think of any name....
Whoever who read this and want to kena tag lolx.
haha.. that should be more than 4 then.

Crap this thing took me about 20 minutes..
study study study

click on the picture to have larger view.

Words by lucky girl.

Math tutoriol hours

This is the continuous of the math story in the previous post....

So, J who thought he offended me n we had apologized to each other.
U thought things just over like that? At first i thought that too, since he said he will not disturb me anymore. However i guess like what he said, if i don't do this, I'm not J.

Everything seems normal on the pass few days. till math tutorial hours came.

Sigh~ He start his nonsense again. What i shouldn't go vacation with my family lar.. what will kena bomb lar.. should go redang with them lar.. er.. * touch wood* I'm going to holiday soon and he is cursing me by now.

(None of my business.. none of my business.. that's what on my brain at that moment).

And crap~ as u know, when someone always 'attack' u, will u be more alert and careful with that person?? Will u??? OF coz u will right!!! I didn't say anything, i just turn back n look only.. Guess what the J said?? "Or... u like me izit??" Friends, i need a plastic bag.. quick.. before i vomit on the floor... So coincide that day i was terribly sick. I can't talk much, or not i would cough non-stop.

I can't help but laughing at the end. Since i was ready to go, i waited JY in front of her desk. Of coz J will not leave any chance to ejek me. However this thing really make me sweat... "CY, don't miss me ar!!!" * sweat''' I can't stand it and i wanted to laugh, however i started to cough. No no no.. this is not the end yet..

"ok , i know lar.. u miss H lar" ... *triple sweat.. since i just recovered from cough, of coz i not going to cough again right? " oh.. just now i said, u cough. Now i said H , u din cough.." Human, what the hell in this world?? Who said such rule or things??? Who set it??

Sigh~ Haha.. of coz he is not really that lucky on that day. Coz he was SOoooo surprise that JY can drive.. and he was considered to has humiliated girls for looking down on girls. He thought girls can't drive izit? Please lar.. haha.. but thanks to JY coz i can't drive alone yet also.. hehe..

Phew~ As i said, I'm quite lucky as well. coz next week i going to shift my last math tutorial to some other day, which he couldn't since he got other class.. Hooray~~~ No more J in my math tutorial.. Haha.. my peaceful last math tutorial.

messy

I think God is fair. However, sometimes i hope God is unfair. Cause i really can't stand pp with zero knowledge of common sense. I guess those "genius" really can't live without their parents.

Remember the Chiang genius i mention before? He was also one of the "0 common sense" pp in life. The clothes they wear, what they are having for lunch and every basic things that we normal human things that u can do on ur own, they just can't do it.

And yes, I realise there are such people appears in my life. Since i'm a very bad tempered person, i get very annoyed whenever i get distracted by 'genius' when i m busy. They can't even fill in a form, don't even notice some small stuff that even the public thought u should know. Really nonsence! One of them, i guess is the mother fault, cause the mother is so protective and do all for him most of the time. Crap~ So when the mother can't help. I will kena kau kau... asking this n that. To me, all the question asked is so commen sense till i think my younger brother would know what to do.

Oh Gosh~ i think i want to die if this thing happen to me everyday. i will die of high blood pressure, which i think i will coz i m really a bad tempered person.

Physic assignment is so troublesome. Although there is another project, thanks to my partner, i don't need to care much. Eiii.. but wait. when i was doing the 1st one, i also did on my own most of the time oso.. ok.. so i tarik balik my thanks.joking

Messy mood~

I watch pirates 3 today! Fantastic good, although it might get a bit bored in the middle. Overall is worth it. nearly 3 hours show, with lovely Johnny Depp and handsome Orlando Bloom. laughing through out the show. I have a wonderful evening with su , jac, n gwen.

To my lovely friends,

Please don't be sad. I know you are having hard times, sorry for not being by your side when you are sad. I know is impossible to make u smile at this moment, or even to make u feel happy. Is okay to cry, is okay to be down.

I know you are strong , and one day u will be able to stand up and smile like you always do.

Before that,
I know i couldn't accompany u physically by your side, or u might want to be alone.
However my blessing will always be with you. I will always support you.

When you need a person to talk with or listen, don't hesitate to get me.
I'll always by your side.

EQ dropping................

Sigh~ i think my EQ just get lower.
Early in the morning still quite okay,
however once the class started, and feeling sleepy.
My mood become very bad and very easily get iritated by others.

So sorry for anyone i offended today if i did. I'm just lack of sleep, so J , don't worry u didn't offended me. Just i'm not in the mood to play with u. However, i do hope u stop doing all those kind of stuff.

That's the EQ thing come, i was always very patient about all those rumuors and teasing for my 18 years of life. However, i didn't know the reason why, but i actually feel iritated about the gossip this time. And what J did has actually leaving more negative marks on his friend which is initially neutral to me.
( my friends scale range from hate.... neutral ... like... love)

Normally neutral is for stranger and my partners which are not my friends. So J's friend, actually from neutral drop to the negative side. Although i didn't know the reason, and H actually didn't do anything, but that's what i feel.

I will be so relief if we can finish the case study 3 soon, so that i can have no more interaction with him anymore.

Disaster in Happy math class

Oh Gosh~ The fluid lab project is so difficult. can't get the value which we suppose to get..sigh~ Let's forget about it.

Was late for maths, get distracted by some nonsense things during tutoriol plus the question is difficult too. I didn't manage to do much of the Question. Really "thx" to "J" lo.. I know u are just trying to make the class more fun, er.. but that made my work undone.

Was laughing till 'nearly' stomachache in math tutoriol. I really don't know why that H so cooperative and just follow whatever J said. Crap~ What i was saying is really true from my heart,'J, go get a DV an record down the movie produce by u." So, J said, if i don't want to accept H, he will still continue to kacau me. So 'what if i already have bf?' Hehe.. for my good old buddy friends who know me, i'm not those who so good girl lo. So i replied him, 'as long as my bf don't mind, u can continue with ur monkey business' I guess he was shocked.

Then the climax of this comedy come, he said smth about surname, trying to relate that the bf to be H. So i told him, NO, my bf surename is C. Okay, so coincidence there is one Dr. C who used to be our math lecturer. So JY said, 'Har! Dr. C??' Oh crap~ Dr. C is an old man who is a bit bald. U can imagine the burst out laughing of everyone.. i'm not sure about other people, but i took few minutes to recover from that 'bomb' I guess JY too.

So i tot this can be the end of the story. However few minutes later, J start again. He said is okay to have an affair. And he promise that all of us will be quiet about that.
*sweat.. What the hack is this?
............................
Gosh~ My Happy math hours is gone.
So, i have to work on it at home.

P/s:C, sorry for involving u in. But i know u will forgive me. :)

奢望

现在最奢望的生活是，

周末的时候，

静静的待在家里，

听着收音机，

静静的听着，

静静的。。。就好

crappy

Blue~~~ mood~~~
I shouldn't have take coffee yesterday evening. The caffein work so well till i don't feel sleepy although is already 2 am in the morning. OH crap~ and i didnt' manage to study for my test. Kept chit chating on msn.
Of course everything has the pro and con. Manage to know more about my new friends, get in touch with some 'old' but close friends. hehe.. And the main thing is, online at mid night, i get the chances to chat with my 'big bro' once a while.
My friends are my source of energy.. So my spirit is now 'fully charged'. However, my body is not. haha.. due to lack of sleep. quite tired the whole day although i get a 8 hours sleep.
and crap, no mood to study~~~
Ok, enough crapping, leaving for dinner soon.
Hopefully i got the mood to study tonight..
Shit~ i have to burn mid night oil d.
Coffee!!! Save me!

Memory

~haihz~~~ Things in uni just remind me of the past. Get tease or should i say distract by J all the time whenever i meet him. J trying to be 'cupid' as he said himself , trying to convince me to ..... this i also not sure.. 'to make me believe that guy like me?' or ' to couple with that guy?' Okay i don't know. Either one also none of my business. That guy i also don't know, coz we just like normal only. He didn't say anything about the gossip and teasing of J.

All the things J did just remind me in the past where i used to get tease by this type of things before. The only thing different is, in the past experience, i really like the guy. Hey this time is like so sudden. And i'm so INNOCENT!

Okay lar.. i not really so 'nice' till i really just accpet what J said. haha.. coz i sure tease back.. I'm not those pp who just stand there and get shoot for no reason.

The only things i care is that, whenever J do such things, it reminds me of T. Not to say sad, not to say feel down. Definitely no hatred or any things like that. Just that his image just run into my head n some memory. Of coz not that i still have those type of feeling.. in chinese word maybe is call 'hui yi'... or izit 'mian huai'???

Don't know~ Need to start study, next week got test n quiz.. final is just one month left.. SCARy~

Hope Ping's eyes get better today~ *Pray*

Tata~~~

P/S: that J must be devil to come to distract me from my study! Angel~~~ please come and save me~ 'let it go~ let it go~'

BAD BAD things

Oh crap!!! Exam is coming.. All the quizzes ,test and assignment, i didn't do well. Some nearly pass only.. Oh shit!!! N the most sad thing is, my physic test paper, all is silly mistake. Imagine.. things that i never get wrong for my whole life of secondary school , i get wrong in uni.. oh gosh~ And just because of the stupid r2 thing.. i remember the wrong things.. i lost 4 marks. haihz.. never every forget the difference between the equation for potential and force anymore..

Pirates of the Caribbean 3 is showing soon!! I really look forward to watch it.. haha.. can't wait to watch it.. one of the reason is because of Johnny Depp~ He is really fantastic.. hehe.. oso because got handsome guy in the movie.. Yeah~ is Orlanda Bloom. Of coz not to forget, really wonder how's the character of Chow Yun Fat in this movie.

I think this is call 'balasan'. But i didn't really tease people much oso.. how can this thing just fall on me. Crap~ kena mix match by my course mate, just because me and that guy is in the same group for one of my project. Please~~~ I'm not interested in this lar. Lucky i not really so stupid oso, i know what u guys are up to. Bler~ So, don't aspect i will react to you guys.. Nah~ haha.. coz i got experience on handling this kind of stuff. I'm not KM who always kena bully by u all. ( hehe sorry KM, sometimes, i joined in the bully group oso) Nah~ but i really didn't do anything, i just smile and laugh only mar. By the way, feel sorry for the guy who kena mix match oso..haha.

Told ping ping about it.. haha. so she told me some interesting story about hers oso.. Lolx.. i guess this type of thing just have to be everywhere.. haha.. coz ping ping oso kena. lolx. : p

OK~ Time for being funky n crazy is enough!!! TIMES TO BE SERIOUS!

Going to study. tata~~~

P/s: Thanks ping for listening to my crap.
And one person who i MUST thanks is EJ, coz she is really a helpful and nice friend of mine in uni.
KM too.. wink*

懒洋洋的星期天，听着DJ的声音，沙发式的音乐。。。
一杯茶，一本书。。。
多么幸福的星期天。。。

平静的心，
颖颖