Devil

Devil Chin Ying

Was a happy day. Celebrated Ejing birthday.. haha. was really full. I can't have my dinner at all. haha..

However was really pissed off by someone. I guess she will never read my blog and I can't be mean in front of her ( not i don't want to, i was stopped by my friends). This particular girl, she make me feel that I'm so evil and rude. Cause she is way toooooooooooooooooo much.

In previous semester, I just thought is the 'evil me' who think bad about her. However, the truth is my sixth sense work well. She not only SUPER blur till no one can tahan except J. She kepochi and want to know every stuff, she will just interrupt your conversation and asked u to tell the whole story again. Worst thing, she need you to repeat few times , not ONCE, is few time before she get it.. sometime she never ever get it. Gosh!I feel so mean, how's her brain work??? And then she like to pretend knowledgeble, the truth is she actually saying what other people said without quoting it. pretend to be her ideas. stupid. Always pretend to be smart and argue with you, which the truth is her super blur brain don't get it.. Explain stuff to her, I always get mad and angry. cause she will argue as if she is the right one. Even the quiet and nice girl HH also get angry with her. I was totally shocked when I knew that. Her calculations cannot be trust , her fact most prob will be wrong, the work pp finish in 1 minutes, she did it in 4 hours and she is such a liar. and her fake mask will soon be tear off. Her pretend to be smart, innocence, nice and hard working( which is all not true) will be known when you know her more.

I was really angry with her. Pity her group mates. J said she was not angry with her cause she already give up on her. She don't expect things to work out from her. Stupid people, if your work is so in a rush, why can't you 2 brains start to work 1st. why must you wait n wait for other pp to reach only u want to start working?? Is that means that 3 brains are actually far better than you 2??? Yeah.. I guess so.

I did mean things to her. I ignored her msn pm. I keep quiet when she appear. I pretend to be blur when she asked me questions. Please.. she super blur, I tried to explain stuff to her b4.. I nearly die of high blood pressure. I don't want to spoil my mood because of her. I don't wan to slow down my progression 100% because of her. About the quiet part, everyone did the same. My friends in uni,the girls are all 38. We claim ourselves to be 38. coz any 2 of us can talk non-stop. However, one day with her appearance when lunching, there are more than 10 of us. Total peace of silent.. all because of her appearance. I don't know is it she really that blur till cannot feel that I don't like her. cause Su n Jacq said, I'm a one sided coin. I directly show what I feel about a person. I just can't hide it. I'm so damn obvious that I don't like you, why can't u get it and leave me alone? Shit u!

I'm so blessed that I'm not going to meet her again next year. If she continue to be like that, she is going to face a lot of problem. I'm sure the girls in my geng which is taking chem eng next year wont want to take her as a group member at all.(Basically not much girls in eng) And the thing I wonder the most, how come she can get into engineering with such a blur mind?? Or is it the standard is too low?

She make me know that, Chin Ying also can be evil , be mean ,and dislike a person.. sooo much. and you know what? I'm so mean that I even don't care if she find out this post. I'm such a devil.

I HATE HER

***removed due to some reason***

I'm Fat

Throughout this year, I have been complaining to my friends I'm fat. They don't believe I was thinner last time. U know girls always don't want to hurt you, they always tell you that you look just fine now.

Till.....

Due to some reason(face book), I showed them photos when I was in campus this morning. Finally they believe it. Girls reaction is still very indirect type. "Wow! This is so 'un-chin ying'!" Sweat (-.-|||) I'm still me, just I'm fat now. But still they don't believe I have tummy now (Typical girl, never comment a girl fat). My 'darling' asked me to dress up like that again cause is very girlish and sweet. No way la!!! I"m too fat to fit in that clothes again. " I was looking in the photo to search for chin ying, why don't have one?" "No lar, you are not fat............ (pause for a long moment, searching for words)... You are just.......... more dimension now.." .er.. totally sweat*

Boys, more direct( My group mate), actually my purpose is to show them the pretty girls. My SAM classmates are really all pretty + smart + nice. The comment I get. "Wah!! Is this really chin ying???" "You look more.........prosperous now.' Isn't prosperous == fat???

Sui~ shouldn't have been so excited to show them leng lui.

I know I'm fat, my cousins told me. La~ wait till holiday, I'll go for slimming plan okay???
Before that, exam coming, will I get thinner or fatter due to stress??? Haha.. don't know.. shall see then.

: )

First day back from holiday, first thought of the day. "Can I continue to sleep?".
I got less than 5 hours sleep, not because of nervous. Already university student, go through this too many times. The main reason is because my aunts from Cameron came and my sister just can't stop chit chatting with them.

Sigh~ luckily, Monday I have only 3 hours lectures. Haha.. cause Monday got Monday blue~ Can't stay in the campus for so many hours. I was very very sleepy the whole morning. Was feeling glad that I can go back at 12pm and get more sleep. But.....

My mom and aunts want to go Pyramid to massage. Gosh! The new pyramid is bigger than i thought. I walked one big round to go back to the 'old' one. Advice from me, wait for few weeks only go, 90% of the shop is not ready for business yet. Still waiting for "Italianese , Hagan Daz ice cream.. and SHOGUN!!" to open. My course mates were really excited when I told them about it.

ahem* And the main thing is, FINALLY I bought Mitch Albom "For one more day". I know this book already out since last year. The problem is I'm a poor student, with no income. So I can't afford RM100 ++ just for that book. The 2nd time I saw it, only got hard cover and the price is RM 68 ++. Hmm.. still cannot. And yesterday I bought it only for RM32.95!!! Is hard cover. The MPH of pyramid just re-open, so there are few selected books( hard cover) are in sale as the same price as the soft cover books. Really happy~ : )

When I was taking up the book, suddenly one bloody red book caught my attention. Stephen King's book, no wonder lar.. It is really worth it, hard cover for approximately RM30. Bought it for bro. Since this year I didn't give him birthday present yet.

Hehe.. and then I bought a new jacket. Mom was in a good mood. She didn't even go see the jacket and she just said 'okay'. Wow! this is really my day!!! The jacket is not cheap tough, is nearly RM100. haha.. love ya mom! Muax.

Another 30 minutes, is the end of my mid semester break.

What happen during the holiday? Totally addicted to comic again. Was facing the computer to read the comic most of the time. Poor my eyes, I think I strain them too much. Totally no mood to study.

Yesterday went out.. unable to do any work either. Plus my aunts and Uncle B came to visit. Today even worse lo. Kept talking n chatting with aunts only.

Let's see what I have finish on my list.

1. Online test for material
Got 10 questions, I did 9. going to search people with similar questions when class starts.

2. Design material
Excel work consider done. Was confuse on some stuff, mailed lecturer. Guess I just need to organize my work and wait for the lab session to come.

3. Corrosion Report
Totally gone. Only manage to plot the graph and have no idea what they want and which equation they talking about.

4. Project 3 of structure
Manage to discuss with few of the group members. Things will be in a rush start from tomorrow.

Things that i SHOULD do:

1. Study material.
Read through few chapters that I need to answer the online test.

2. Study MATLAB.
Totally crap. The lecture notes useless. I don't know how to study for MATLAB!!!

3. Study electrical .
This totally untouched. haihz.. lazy lo...

4. Study structure.
Same case as electrical. I think I cannot sleep in his lecture anymore.

5. Do the past year paper of MATLAB,
Didn't touch also. coz the answer is GIVEN!! so no mood to do.

6. Do the paper gave by Mark.
Tried one out of three. Was confused and can't get the answer.

7. Read finish Jeffrey Archer book.
:P.. Su is so going to kill me for keeping her book for so long. and I din read much.. argh.. Will try to finish it this few days time.

Things i WANT to do:

1. Kindaichi - Didn't finish..
2. Chat with friends- did with few..
3. Go yum cha with friends- did with only 2 friends.. nvm.. wait for another week.
4. Did chat with Ping, but not at her house..
5. Didn't really play much piano.
6. 1 litre of tears. din even touch for one episode.
7. Play puzzle.- Oh. I did this. haha..

Still need to draw a conclusion for my holiday. In the conclusion, my holiday plan failed.
Reason: Computer with internet.
Suggestion: Throw away your computer before the next holiday reach.

Tag

The Rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve tagged, and to read your blog.

• I always have days that I feel my spirit is really low. I don't feel like going to uni, don't feel like talking, don't feel like doing anything. Even when I'm in uni, I feel like hiding myself in a corner. I just won't get interested in anything on that day. Can't really show any other expression on my face on those days. And most of the time, I will feel like calling bro or sis and just listen to them. I have not do this before because I have nothing to say actually, just want to listen to them. And on those days, I will just hope time fly faster, so that I can hide myself at home.
  
• I have very bad tempered.Instead should I said I am weird sometime? Sometime I realize I angry with some stupid stuff that if other people know, they will just say I too sensitive. However, when some stuff that people are angry with, I think is not a big deal.
  
• Actually, I very lazy to use cleanser to wash my face. I can't even remember the last time I do mask on my face or use conditioner.
  
• My secondary friends are my support. In uni now, most of the friends, they are not in my heart yet. Is like.. hmm.. they just some people walk pass only. I shouldn't have bother much. And is more tiring about friendship in uni. My secondary school friends just stay in my heart no matter where I go.
  
• I trust people very easily. However if u lost my trust once, u might take a while to gain back it. Sometime never. It depends.
  
• I am a crying baby. However, I don't cry in public except cinema. No matter what. Haha. I also don't know why.
  
• I feel guilty if I don't prepare for my exam. Super guilty.
• I like to talk to my doggie. I know it can't answer me. I feel that he understand what I talking.
  

Tag again. Haihz~ Most of them did before d lo.. Still the same. U want to do then do lo.

tag

Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don’t read the questions before you write, and tag 5 ppl to do the survey.

1. Stephen
2. Wee Ping
3. Bernice
4. Yew Siong
5. Daniel
6. Jonathan
7. Jacky
8. Su
   
9. Jacq
10. Su yin
11. CT
12. Siu
13. Beatrice
14. Rachel Au
15. Kevin
    
16. Wai ping
17. James
18. Wen jun
19. Elaine
20. Patric

1) How did you meet 14? (Rachel Au)

In secondary school. Can't remember the detail.

2) What would you do if you haven’t met no. 1? (Stephen)

Er.. Life won't make much different??? Haha.. no la. Will be different without this fellow. Cause he is my bro. Help me a lot. Maybe I will be different, not so happy n optimistic. Hmmm.. la~ don't know lar.. can't imagine.

3) What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?(Patric and Jacq)

Both also so kiddy. Will be like looking at 2 kids playing lo.. I will kill Patric maybe.. cause Jacq is my darling lo.

4) Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (Jonathan and James)

Gosh! U must b kidding.. 2 gays.. If both also just joking, they might act well. But if true, Cheryl will kill Jonathan lo.

5) Describe no.3. (Bernice)

Very smart, haha. but very careless as well. Very straight forward person. Know what she want, going after her dream. Others think she talk very fast, I don't think so.. haha. maybe because sometime I talk fast too.

6) Do you think no 8 is attractive? (Su)

Su is very cute instead of attractive.

7) Tell me about no. 7.(Jacky)

He studied chemical engineering. Stay in Singapore. He just like a big bro of mine, always give me advise on what should I do. Good listener.

8 ) Do you know anything bout no.12’s family?(Siu)

2 elder sister, and one younger bro. Very close family relationship.

9) What is no 8’s favourite?(Su)

Hmmm.. Comic! Prince of Tennis , ryoma n tezuka. Novel. haha. and the some secret i shouldn't say.

10) What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?(CT)

haha. I will hug her lo.. Cause she is my SISTER. I mean my really own sister.

11) What language does 15 speak? (Kevin)

English, Malay, Cantonese and Mandarin are getting better.

12) Who is 9 going out with?(Jacq)

Hmm.. she is still single.. so go out also with one big geng of us.

13) How old is 16 now?(Wai ping)

19.

14) When was the last time you talked to 13?(Beatrice)

Long time ago, nearly 2 years. cause she already in New Zealand.

15) No. 2’s fav singer?(Wee Ping)

Er.. I not sure. 'zhai zhai, zhou yu ming'??? I know she like Korean songs.

16) Would you date no.18 ?(Wen Jun)

Hmm.. dunno.

17) Would you date 7?(Jacky)

Won't I guess.. cause he so far away.

18) Is 15 single?(Kevin)

haha.. nope... hope it doesn't break ur heart.

19) What’s 10’s last name? (Su yin)

Yin.

20) Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11?(CT)

This is stupid.. she is my SIS lo.

21)What school does 3 go to?(Bernice)

Er... University College Dublin..

22)Where does 6 live?(Jonathan)

PJ. i guess.

23) What’s your fav thing bout 5?(Daniel)

Gentleman.. I can't find gentleman in uni yet. sad

Shit! I dunno who to tag. Most of them also kena tagged d..

So.. haha.. u want to do the tag then do lo...

happiness of life

Yesterday mooncake festival, went back to grandpa's house.. a MUST!!! Get to meet some of the relatives.

That baby girl.. my little cousin, still afraid of stranger ( which is me n my family).. okay lar, now a BIT better. At least she don't cry when she 1st look at us. Another 3 getting very naughty, kids are always naughty. got one actually tried to take something off me without asking. haha.. Of coz as cousin, i won't let her go so easily. I guide her to ask permission and say thanks. Coz she always been rude, my parents have been complaining about her rudeness. All my little cousins are very pretty girl. Of coz i hope they have beauty inside too.

One of my cousin was quite late.. around 11pm only reached, very busy with work. He is an engineer.. hehe.. graduate from Monash Malaysia. Yesterday I just knew that few of my tutors are friends of his.. such as material, computing tutors. and the owner of the mix rice in the cafe ( the one behind 1901) is also his friend. Phew~ lucky his friends all don't know me. A not if I do something wrong, they go report to him.. I die.. Coz my cousin all very close with my mom..

Ping already sick for nearly one week. Poor her, must be really serious her sore throat. Since she is sick, and need more rest. I didn't go find her. The thing I should do during holiday.. eh.. With my computer always on in front of me. As 3cinr3b said, the computer really very distracting. I always ended up checking blog, playing games, reading comic.. Gone!

Till now i only did part of my online test, only plotted the graph for corrosion test, study corrosion for material. (really little right?)

Still enjoying holiday~ with this holiday, i manage to chat with Su, Esther, and turtle.. I have not contact with Esther and turtle for ages. haha.. really glad that we manage to chat. with Su, we just crap some stuff which we will never say it in uni.. haha.. can imagine 2 gals chatting about leng chai in msn till midnight?? Of coz we not talking about leng chai in our uni.. (coz actually no leng chai in our uni) So sad case right? So we actually talking about leng chai of comic and some crap lar..

red-box

Last Saturday, the 1st day of holiday. I went red-box with my friends. Those girls are really crazy fellow of singing. We had lots of fun. haha. .and we definitely going there again. Coz we have a birthday to celebrate soon.

I just check out ejing's blog and realize we have the same thought. When we were singing Avril Lavigne "when you're gone", I was thinking about 3cinr3b, we sang the same song in Neway too. I felt sad.

When You're Gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

Grabbed from Ejing

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holiday

Holiday~~~Although only one week. Definitely need it. Hmmm...
Let see what I HAVE to do in this holiday.

1. Online test for material
due on 4th October(Melbourne time).Should submit on 3th of October. Need to study material to do this.

2. Design material
Excel work. Damn tedious, need to choose the most optimize shape. Search for suitable materials. I tried to use MATLAB, think i still not good at it. Failed to run the file i wrote.

3. Corrosion Report
Although Sir has been very kind and delayed the due date to week 12. I guess i shouldn't wait till that time.

4. Project 3 of structure
Gosh! Bridge again. Have been facing bridges project so many times. 1st time, design and do calculation. 2nd time, did a newspaper bridge. This time.. bridge again.. boring..

Things that i SHOULD do:

1. Study material.
If don't study, can't do the things above.

2. Study MATLAB.
Crazy test is on 6th of October. No failing allowed!!!

3. Study electrical .
Stupid crap that I think my 2 tests also gone d. I have to score on my final which is 70%. The failing rate of this unit is as high as 46%. I don't wan to be the 46%.

4. Study structure.
The monotones lecturer is back. I have been sleeping in his lectures, guess need to study a bit.

5. Do the past year paper of MATLAB,
don wanna fail the test.

6. Do the paper gave by Mark.
Mark is a nice tutor. Don't waste is his hard work.

7. Read finish Jeffrey Archer book.
so that can return to Su as soon as possible.

Things i WANT to do:

1. Read finish Kindaichi comic online.. I don't wan to wait for Jon. He read so slow.
2. Chat with friends. esp. those who i nvr contact for long.
3. Go yum cha with friends.
4. Go Ping's house to chat wit her.
5. Play piano till i get bored with it.
6. Watched 1 Litre of Tears again.( downloading again)
7. Play puzzle.. addicted with puzzle of facebook.

Most important. recharged myself & get rid of the irritating feel about that human.

Now is just beginning of my 1 week mid semester break. Let's see by the end of the holiday. How many task I can finish it. Hopefully all. hehe. .(greedy )

Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?




Final Fantasy VII

九型人格分析

第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使 13%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型 13%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型 12%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型 12%
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者 11%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型 11%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型 10%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者 10%
第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型 8%

我的九型人格分析？

Evil me?

Not really feeling great. I was always warned by my good friend before, however I always believe that we should trust the others. However my life just proved me wrong and I'm lost. I don't know what should I do.

Mad and angry are first come to me when I encountered such problem. I feel like doing the same thing to them and leave them with their mess. Trying to be inconsiderate, selfish. However, when I think again from their shoes. If I'm in the situation, and is really desperate, I would really need those helps. However, they have not show those helps I need before even though I need it. Maybe I should not think too much. Maybe I'm too sensitive about my intuition. Although I'm weird and my intuition is more 'evil', normally my intuition is correct.Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so mess up! Is this my 'evil me' thinking bad about people again, or is it really true about those people?

Human in this world is super complicated. Super evil and tremendously 'leceh'. Maybe I shouldn't think too perfectly about human. I always forget, I have an 'evil me' inside, although it rarely appear, it doesn't mean others people 'evil me' never turn up often. Maybe I shouldn't trust them so much.

Conclusion, my 'bro's and my secondary school friends are the best. I have not face such problem before with them. That's why I never stop missing my secondary school, always feeling desperate to contact with them, feeling sad whenever remember our past.

And of coz they are exception in the current situation group, my 2 'darling's are always so innocent. I guess that's the reason I love them so much.

rainy

"STUPID PEOPLE"

The new campus really very stupidly LOUSY!!! Not only the physical structure ,but also the stupid policy.

I think is not appropriate to mention where am i studying now. But as i mention, u can guess if u don't know. Stupidly, the building i study is the 2nd phase which mean is just finish built before this new semester. And you know what happen????

After 1st few weeks, water leaking in the toilet's'. Toilet 'rosak'. One of the worst i heard, while a tutor was tutoring, a piece of 'ceiling'( a piece of board stuff) nearly fall on him. what the heck right???

This week , is just approximately 1 weeks after official launch. Guess what?? Flood!!! Where??? Computer lab on third floor according to tutor. Early in the morning, when i stepped into the library, why is the carpet all wet??? flood...

Sien right??? Who ever the 'smart' architect or engineer is this.

As i mention in the previous post. I am sick and quite a number of my classmates too. And so bad luck, when i finish class today. It was raining very heavily.. If sunny day, the security don't let the cars to come in i understand lar.. but is raining so heavily. and they guards still don't allow cars to come in and pick or drop us. What the heck??? And the 'smart' architect or engineer is so damn inconsiderate, there are no way u can get out of this uni without getting wet if is a rainy day if the car is not allow to drive in. Even from one building to another in the campus itself, u also can get wet. coz the architect or engineer is just too 'smart' to only consider his 'beautiful & stylist' design without considering what a student really want.

Crap right?? Hate this stupid stuff.. sometimes human are just so stupid. And according to my progress, i can get well by tomorrow. After get rained in this evening, I think the possibility just reduced and I not feeling well now. Shit them! I was energetic back in the morning and now I'm sick back and sleepy.

STUPID SCHOOL , the foyer is not for you to welcome your precious guest or whatever high level officer. And what's wrong by letting the car in while u have no PM nor any u so called precious Very Important P.. is in the uni at that time.

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

"romantic"

"" Romantic""

Walking under the rain sound very romantic right???

Oh yea.. and yes.. on Monday, when we were walking back to the uni, it started to rain. Since is not heavy, just walk lar... A not we will be late for class. And i drank so many hot tea for the past few days.. And shit things.. I still fall sick.

Before this I was teasing JY that she watched 'secret' too touch.. So she fall sick.. However by Tuesday night, I start to feel a bit sick.. So i realize that what is common about us.. We did something so called 'romantic' on Monday... walking under the rain.

There are 4 of us, how come only 2 of us sick.. haihz.. sob sob.. this few weeks hectic weeks some more.. :(

Pray Pray.. I will heal by tomorrow.Flu, please don't come n find me. I don't want to get sleepy in the test tomorrow. Fever too, I already settled u.. don't come n find me.. I don't miss u at all..

Heaven???

We were told that good people always die early, cause God want him to enjoy in the heaven. Therefore take him away earlier.

I don't believe in any God. To me, heaven sound like a bored place. Our life now is meaningful, more happy because there is sad to show the contrast. That's like u can't have only bright without the darkness. There are difficulties in life, only then we feel satisfied and great when we overcome it. Without all the pain, nothing is gain, nothing is worth to be cheer of.

If everything is so perfect in this world, there will be less love and care. Only with the existence of the poor and needy, we can show our helping hands. If not, there are no used of your hands.

There are still love in this world,
more caring, more smiles and of course the pain...
Thus....

Living in this world as a human, is the best thing of the world.

Engineer with accountant mind????

This morning, finally received her sms. She already reached and get her irish phone number. Glad to hear from her. will reply later, a not might wake her up from her beauty sleep.

As usual, Friday is the day to get crazy. People in material lab/tute, still that sarcastic and dramatic.. N laughter always there.. That's normal for Friday.

We had revision for material lecture, which is bored. There are nothing much we can revise. Since only few new topics, others we were forced to learn them up for the past assignment. So we realise all the bored lecturers are coming back for lectures.. Sigh~ Can we skip classes???

So we started to calculate how much one lecture worth. We paid RM 16714.92 for one semester. One semester consists of 13 weeks only. And for a student who take material as elective, we have 21 hours of lectures, labs or tutorial per week. One hour of lecture actually costs us RM 61.23, so every minute u late for ur class, u are actually wasting approximately RM 1 per minutes.. That's like RM 0.02 per second..
(This sound like going to meet a lawyer, who charged for every minutes u consult him.)

After analysed, i gave up the thought of skip classes.. and will never ever be late for class when every second count..

And we do sound like accountant.. lolx... haha... But of coz we are future ENGINEER with business mind.

In this reality world, money does matter.

missing u

She left , she cried and still we worry about her.
I'm missing her now.

Yesterday, after she left i was not in a good mood although i didn't cry. ( I don't cry in public)
Thanks lar 'bro's.. i know u guys were worried and trying to cheer us up. but not in the mood to do so.. i just want some silent moments. Thanks for fetching us.

Just read her blog.. (stupid streamyx.... my house can't connect to internet again)
I guess is a bad idea to do so in the uni.. I nearly cry in the library.. So what i did was, read one paragraph.. go do something else.. go chit chat n then came back.. continue read.. just to prevent myself from crying in the public..

Yesterday night , when we were on the way back, actually i'm glad u din call me.. coz i don wan to cry on the day u leave.

I know u can do well there. Love u~ Missing u
Take care..

I'm going to miss u

I am a very lazy blogger.. today, no matter what, i have to post this up. This is about a good friend of mine.

3cinr3b is leaving to Ireland.. and when i knew the exact date, it only left less than 2 weeks. Although busy with mid term exam and everything, i still feel like doing her something before she leave. We came up with a surprise for her. After this and that... we did have fun and appreciate every moment of having her before she leave.

On that 2 days, i always nearly cry.. but i didn't.. i kept telling myself.. gal, she just going for 2 n a half year.. not that she's not coming back. May be i am just too emo.. Reading her blog , all of the memories just pop up.. We really been through a lot of stuff together.

Actually after nearly 2 years of leaving secondary school, i realize something. Ping and U just can't be replaced by anyone. No one gonna know me like u two do. Never ever.
And of coz.. the bunch of us that always play together, for every up and down we been through.

I never say this before to u gals, but I really love u all. I wish 3cinr3b will have fun in Ireland and do well in her study. I know u can do it!!! Love ya~ and i'm so gonna miss u.

"bookworm club"???

Suppose to be super stress and busy this few weeks...
electrical , structure and material test.. crazy
add on with material n structure project.. killing

n not to forget the usual tutorial work n report.. die

Was being advised to pick up a club by someone... so that my cert won't be so plain by the time i graduate.
However, there is no club that i'm in interested..

Those very serious type, add on the burden.. stress
sports type.. sweat..
some. find it useless..

So crap said "bookworm club"

??????? Got such club mer?????
NOpe

Form ur own.. Not a bad idea.. was quite interested..
a club where we can swap book, look for book sale.. share our tot..
organize trip to book sale(nuts right?).. write review n recomend books.

However after check out the process of it.. Let's forget about it..
Forming it is not a problem, but the meeting n compulsory attendance stuff..

A lazy person like me, which is even lazy to join a club... Don't expect me to put so many focus and energy in running a club.. is killing me..

~Poof~... Idea is always good, but people is always lazy...
that's why good things seldom happen

She seems so sad.
She no longer believe in "optimistic"
She is having the downfall of her life,
and everything seems so grey for her.
She is alone.
The love she has is so far away,
so hard to reach.
She smile ,
however is not from her heart.
I love her , but i can't reach her.
What can i do?
What can i do to cheer her up?
I wish u have never go there,
so that u won't lost the smile on ur face,
so that i won't lost the optimistic friend.

The power of the mind

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.

Buddha

I have always believe that our mind is the one that play the main role of nearly everything.
There is also one story that is related to mind, that i would like to share.
It was a story that i read i was young.

The story begin with two young students who were going to the government examination. It is an examination that will affect their future. In the olden China, only people who score in the government exam get to be the officer of government.

However, on the way to the examination hall, they saw a funeral. When they saw the coffin, both of them have different thinking.

One of them thought that, coffin is a sign of bad luck and he get worried, whereas the other think that it is a good sign. This is because the word of coffin in Mandarin is 'guan chai', the word 'guan' has the same pronouncation as the 'guan' of officer.

At last, the person who thought is a good sign scored. And i guess u will know what happen to the other one.

What I trying to say is that our mind affect us. The way we think of a matter, will change the result.

So what ever and when every is it, try to think positively. There is always the good side of it no matter how bad the things is.

One litre of tears

One litre of tears is going to be show on 8tv this Saturday. Can't wait to watch it again.

I had post about this touching n meaningful Japanese drama before.
So i will just re-post it again.

Hope u will enjoy this drama.
Other than the drama, the theme song sing by K , "Only Human" is worth listening too.

One Litre of Tears is a Japanese series about a 15 year old girl named Aya Ikeuchi has this disease and is desperately fighting it.This disease is named spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. But there's no cure yet for this sickness.The original story is based on the diary of Aya who kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen.
I am totally touch by the story and the message that Aya wish to pass to the world.She is just a 15 years old girl when she know about that the disease she is fighting with.She have a bright future if she never get the disease. However, she tried her best and be useful to the others. Her diary which later become a book, title One Litre of Tears had cheer up those who have the same disease as her and the others.
If you can, try to get the book or watch the Japanese series. It totally worth it and you will be thankful that u still seeing the sun shine today and every single things. You will be glad that you still can talk , can walk, can write. Be useful to others.It will make you think about your life, and make you appreciate what you have and what you can.
I felt so sorry for the people surrounding her especially her family members.(of coz her too). You will never say you are unhappy or unlucky compare to Aya. coz you are still healthy, u still can do everything which she can't .We should be satisfy with whatever we have.Life is precious.

This is the 3rd week of new semester. Not excited, not sad, no particular feeling.
Quite happy that i can still meet up with my 'darlings'. However, this new semester, the only thing i feel recently is rush...

I don't know what i am rushing about, a lot of uncertainties which mess up my heart.
The context of the units seems to be more difficult than previous.
Some of it i find it interesting, some bored. Whatever it is, still have to force myself to study.

Don't really have the urge to study, but there is always accumulation of home works on my study table. No mood, but no choice, i have to start working with it.

Hopefully i will be more hardworking this semester.
Being a Nerd won't be bad after all.

Holiday~

Is holiday~ Yeepee!!! Say bye bye to your 'stress', 'depression' and 'exam'. Be happy although this is only for a short period.

Due to exam and assignments, I have not been driving for ages.
Today evening, I drove my bro home. Of coz my dad sat next to me as always... Not only because i sux at driving, n the most important things, i don't have sense of direction. So i don't remember where my brother tuition at although i went few times.(Sorry, i m really that bad at this)

Er... I still can't do turning well, parking worst. Since my dad sat next to me, I don dare to drive more than 80km/h at KESAS highway.. around 70km/h as average.. Lo~ I know that is kind of slow.. And my brother actually slept.. (Please, he is really over doing it!). I can't imagine if i drive 90km/ h... My dad will definitely shout at me. He got high blood pressure, better don't make him mad.

According to my progression, I don't think I'll be able to drive till next year.. Sigh~ However, atleast I'm moving on. Haha.. coz my elder sister, she don't dare to drive after she had broke my cousin's car side mirror. It happen long time ago.. more than a year i guess. Even her P'license was already renew by now. Ya, she still not driving...

I have been missing my piano so much.. hehe.. was playing the whole evening although at first I planned to go to Ping's house. Sorry ya, coz a guest came when I want to step out the door.

That's all for the day~ I'm leaving for my anime.. yeepee.. missing them a lot too.

Enjoys ur holiday~

I CAN DO IT

What am i doing now? I am suppose to be nerding...lol~ Not feeling good about the exam coming for this last few days. super shock by the past year pp.. especially physic.

Feeling depress and stress. Human, i think this time i might really fail my paper.. Sigh...

However, i really like to thanks those who motivated me, talk to me, pray for me.. and support me.. thanks ya. appreciate it. And it really make me feel better after the talk. Coz ur words is always the energy of mine. Love ya~

Time to move one.. I CAN DO IT!!!

Exam, nerding, motivating

Busy nerding this week. Nerding means study till like nerd and u are so focus till u ignore everything around u. I was nerding with 'nerding buddies' in library, and photo of nerding was snapped without realise (refer to J Y blog). Too concentrate~~~

Today can't really study intensively in the library. Very noisy ler~ Please lar, this is LIBRARY , u are in QUIET AREA. Not PASAR MALAM, or in DISCUSSION AREA. Discussion area is just few steps away. Please move there. Or not, please whisper, don't talk with your normal volume please. Thanks you.

What i did was ignored, although we were so irritated by the noise just behind us. haha.. the J who came later to ask question was too noisy till the guy sat near us kept looking at him. J, the God learn to lower down ur voice lar.

I was not in the mood of study today. Lazy lar.. feeling sick n tired. Sob~ exam coming only want to sick. Shoo.. shoo.. all the virus n bacteria..

To motivate myself and those who come n look at my blog while you are suppose to be studying.

Think of the Africa kids who lost their parents, no one to support , and most of them don't even get a chance for basic education. Be thankful, ur parents are there for u. U are receiving good education. U are able to study. So is just one more step.. after this few weeks. U are free temporarily before the new semester start. Just be thankful, this is for u, not ur parents, they don't benefits much from ur academic results. So u are studying for urself not anyone else.

U are already here, why don't u do ur best?

I miss u

I'm missing someone... and the feeling is so strong that i can't even ignore it.
I wish i could just have a word from him now. Even a 'hi' will do.
However, i guess I'll be disappointed tonight.

He is not my lover, not my brother, not my friends, not my partners.
He seems to be nobody.
No one know, he is special to me.

To me, he is my brother. A gift from God. I would like to share my every moment with him.

Brother, i miss u. I'm feeling sad without knowing why. My tears just can't hold anymore.
I need someone to support me.

Tonight, my heart has overtake my brain.

'Payment' to Ping

Just realise that i was being tag by ping long time ago( last year).. n i didn't notice.. sorry ya. She just told me when i said i had tagged her.. So this is what i owe u ping:

10 years ago, I ...
1) was a kid
2) was at primary school
3) still learning my piano
4) still look like a boy
5) 'am' very innocence

5 years ago, I ...
1) am a teenager
2) was studying in SMK USJ 12
3) just know my 'tailo'
4) learn the word 'banana'
5) am fat

1 year ago, I ...
1) was doing sam
2) was feeling stress
3) know one class of genius
4) just received SPM result , of coz satisfy
5) lost my self

Yesterday I ...
1) was awake till 6 am..
2) sleep at 6 am
3) doing math for the whole night ( i'm becoming a math freak)
4) listened to music
5) 'siao' already

5 most recent songs I've listened to...
1) Every heart -Boa
2) Dearest - Ayumi Hamasaki
3) Part of me- Ayumi Hamasaki
4) 那年夏天宁静的海-王心凌
5) 怀念- Jolin 蔡依林

5 Songs I know all the words to ...
1)All forget d looo.

5 Things I really Want
1) pass all my exam
2) get a baby grand piano
3) read more books
4) find back myself
5) my family to be safe n healthy

5 Things I should be doing ...
1) study
2) revision
3) sleep
4) shut down my computer
5) pack up my bag

5 Biggest Joy in my life...
1) is my friends
2) my family
3) fall in love
4) read
5) Music

5 people I tag ...
Ok lar. this time i won't be so bad anymore.. no name.. whoever want to be tag. tag urself lar har..

time to study..

2 AM in the morning

Okay. now is 2 am in the morning.. Gosh! Yes , i kena tag by JY. sigh~ shouldn't have check on ur blog lo. haha , no la. kidding. So there u go...

Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Ng Chin Ying
Birth Date: 13/2/89
Current Status: Single
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: Black

Layer 2: On the Inside
My Heritage: Chinese
My Fears: Unknown
My Weaknesses: Too sensitive or too insensitive sometimes, stupidity
My Perfect Pizza: No particular like

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thoughts waking up: What's the time now?
My bedtime: 10pm to 11pm normally . When near to exam or weekend, 1 to 2 am
My Most Missed Memory: Secondary school

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Group
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee: Both

Layer 5: Do You...
Smoke: No, i hate smokers.
Curse: In my heart. I hate to hear pp swear, esp those who like to swear in every sentence they speak.
Take a Shower: Of coz yes.
Have a Crush: yes
Go to School: yes
Want to Get Married: depends on fate.
Believe in Yourself: yes
You're a Health Freak: er.. not sure

Layer 6: In the Past
Drink Alcohol: yes. a bit lo...
Gone to the Mall: *faint.. yes lar
Been on Stage: Yes
Eaten Sushi: Yes.
Dyed Your Hair: No

Layer 7: Have You Ever...
Played a Stripping Game: No
Changed Who You Were to Fit In: never tot of it.

Layer 8: Age You're Hoping to...
Get Married: After 25

Layer 9: In a Guy
Best Eye Color: Black
Best Hair Color: Black
Short or Long Hair: short

Layer 10:
What You Were Doing
A Minute Ago: doing this tag
An Hour Ago: doing Maths
Four and a Half Hours ago: doing math
A Month Ago: sleeping
A Year Ago: Feeling stress of SAM life???

Layer 11: Finish The Sentences
I love: you
I feel: calm
I hate:smokers
I hide: my heart
I miss: someone
I need: more time

Layer 12: Tag 4 People
Sorry to
Thick frame ping
Jun Jun
Wait. i can't think of any name....
Whoever who read this and want to kena tag lolx.
haha.. that should be more than 4 then.

Crap this thing took me about 20 minutes..
study study study

click on the picture to have larger view.

Words by lucky girl.

Math tutoriol hours

This is the continuous of the math story in the previous post....

So, J who thought he offended me n we had apologized to each other.
U thought things just over like that? At first i thought that too, since he said he will not disturb me anymore. However i guess like what he said, if i don't do this, I'm not J.

Everything seems normal on the pass few days. till math tutorial hours came.

Sigh~ He start his nonsense again. What i shouldn't go vacation with my family lar.. what will kena bomb lar.. should go redang with them lar.. er.. * touch wood* I'm going to holiday soon and he is cursing me by now.

(None of my business.. none of my business.. that's what on my brain at that moment).

And crap~ as u know, when someone always 'attack' u, will u be more alert and careful with that person?? Will u??? OF coz u will right!!! I didn't say anything, i just turn back n look only.. Guess what the J said?? "Or... u like me izit??" Friends, i need a plastic bag.. quick.. before i vomit on the floor... So coincide that day i was terribly sick. I can't talk much, or not i would cough non-stop.

I can't help but laughing at the end. Since i was ready to go, i waited JY in front of her desk. Of coz J will not leave any chance to ejek me. However this thing really make me sweat... "CY, don't miss me ar!!!" * sweat''' I can't stand it and i wanted to laugh, however i started to cough. No no no.. this is not the end yet..

"ok , i know lar.. u miss H lar" ... *triple sweat.. since i just recovered from cough, of coz i not going to cough again right? " oh.. just now i said, u cough. Now i said H , u din cough.." Human, what the hell in this world?? Who said such rule or things??? Who set it??

Sigh~ Haha.. of coz he is not really that lucky on that day. Coz he was SOoooo surprise that JY can drive.. and he was considered to has humiliated girls for looking down on girls. He thought girls can't drive izit? Please lar.. haha.. but thanks to JY coz i can't drive alone yet also.. hehe..

Phew~ As i said, I'm quite lucky as well. coz next week i going to shift my last math tutorial to some other day, which he couldn't since he got other class.. Hooray~~~ No more J in my math tutorial.. Haha.. my peaceful last math tutorial.

messy

I think God is fair. However, sometimes i hope God is unfair. Cause i really can't stand pp with zero knowledge of common sense. I guess those "genius" really can't live without their parents.

Remember the Chiang genius i mention before? He was also one of the "0 common sense" pp in life. The clothes they wear, what they are having for lunch and every basic things that we normal human things that u can do on ur own, they just can't do it.

And yes, I realise there are such people appears in my life. Since i'm a very bad tempered person, i get very annoyed whenever i get distracted by 'genius' when i m busy. They can't even fill in a form, don't even notice some small stuff that even the public thought u should know. Really nonsence! One of them, i guess is the mother fault, cause the mother is so protective and do all for him most of the time. Crap~ So when the mother can't help. I will kena kau kau... asking this n that. To me, all the question asked is so commen sense till i think my younger brother would know what to do.

Oh Gosh~ i think i want to die if this thing happen to me everyday. i will die of high blood pressure, which i think i will coz i m really a bad tempered person.

Physic assignment is so troublesome. Although there is another project, thanks to my partner, i don't need to care much. Eiii.. but wait. when i was doing the 1st one, i also did on my own most of the time oso.. ok.. so i tarik balik my thanks.joking

Messy mood~

I watch pirates 3 today! Fantastic good, although it might get a bit bored in the middle. Overall is worth it. nearly 3 hours show, with lovely Johnny Depp and handsome Orlando Bloom. laughing through out the show. I have a wonderful evening with su , jac, n gwen.

To my lovely friends,

Please don't be sad. I know you are having hard times, sorry for not being by your side when you are sad. I know is impossible to make u smile at this moment, or even to make u feel happy. Is okay to cry, is okay to be down.

I know you are strong , and one day u will be able to stand up and smile like you always do.

Before that,
I know i couldn't accompany u physically by your side, or u might want to be alone.
However my blessing will always be with you. I will always support you.

When you need a person to talk with or listen, don't hesitate to get me.
I'll always by your side.

EQ dropping................

Sigh~ i think my EQ just get lower.
Early in the morning still quite okay,
however once the class started, and feeling sleepy.
My mood become very bad and very easily get iritated by others.

So sorry for anyone i offended today if i did. I'm just lack of sleep, so J , don't worry u didn't offended me. Just i'm not in the mood to play with u. However, i do hope u stop doing all those kind of stuff.

That's the EQ thing come, i was always very patient about all those rumuors and teasing for my 18 years of life. However, i didn't know the reason why, but i actually feel iritated about the gossip this time. And what J did has actually leaving more negative marks on his friend which is initially neutral to me.
( my friends scale range from hate.... neutral ... like... love)

Normally neutral is for stranger and my partners which are not my friends. So J's friend, actually from neutral drop to the negative side. Although i didn't know the reason, and H actually didn't do anything, but that's what i feel.

I will be so relief if we can finish the case study 3 soon, so that i can have no more interaction with him anymore.

Disaster in Happy math class

Oh Gosh~ The fluid lab project is so difficult. can't get the value which we suppose to get..sigh~ Let's forget about it.

Was late for maths, get distracted by some nonsense things during tutoriol plus the question is difficult too. I didn't manage to do much of the Question. Really "thx" to "J" lo.. I know u are just trying to make the class more fun, er.. but that made my work undone.

Was laughing till 'nearly' stomachache in math tutoriol. I really don't know why that H so cooperative and just follow whatever J said. Crap~ What i was saying is really true from my heart,'J, go get a DV an record down the movie produce by u." So, J said, if i don't want to accept H, he will still continue to kacau me. So 'what if i already have bf?' Hehe.. for my good old buddy friends who know me, i'm not those who so good girl lo. So i replied him, 'as long as my bf don't mind, u can continue with ur monkey business' I guess he was shocked.

Then the climax of this comedy come, he said smth about surname, trying to relate that the bf to be H. So i told him, NO, my bf surename is C. Okay, so coincidence there is one Dr. C who used to be our math lecturer. So JY said, 'Har! Dr. C??' Oh crap~ Dr. C is an old man who is a bit bald. U can imagine the burst out laughing of everyone.. i'm not sure about other people, but i took few minutes to recover from that 'bomb' I guess JY too.

So i tot this can be the end of the story. However few minutes later, J start again. He said is okay to have an affair. And he promise that all of us will be quiet about that.
*sweat.. What the hack is this?
............................
Gosh~ My Happy math hours is gone.
So, i have to work on it at home.

P/s:C, sorry for involving u in. But i know u will forgive me. :)

奢望

现在最奢望的生活是，

周末的时候，

静静的待在家里，

听着收音机，

静静的听着，

静静的。。。就好

crappy

Blue~~~ mood~~~
I shouldn't have take coffee yesterday evening. The caffein work so well till i don't feel sleepy although is already 2 am in the morning. OH crap~ and i didnt' manage to study for my test. Kept chit chating on msn.
Of course everything has the pro and con. Manage to know more about my new friends, get in touch with some 'old' but close friends. hehe.. And the main thing is, online at mid night, i get the chances to chat with my 'big bro' once a while.
My friends are my source of energy.. So my spirit is now 'fully charged'. However, my body is not. haha.. due to lack of sleep. quite tired the whole day although i get a 8 hours sleep.
and crap, no mood to study~~~
Ok, enough crapping, leaving for dinner soon.
Hopefully i got the mood to study tonight..
Shit~ i have to burn mid night oil d.
Coffee!!! Save me!

Memory

~haihz~~~ Things in uni just remind me of the past. Get tease or should i say distract by J all the time whenever i meet him. J trying to be 'cupid' as he said himself , trying to convince me to ..... this i also not sure.. 'to make me believe that guy like me?' or ' to couple with that guy?' Okay i don't know. Either one also none of my business. That guy i also don't know, coz we just like normal only. He didn't say anything about the gossip and teasing of J.

All the things J did just remind me in the past where i used to get tease by this type of things before. The only thing different is, in the past experience, i really like the guy. Hey this time is like so sudden. And i'm so INNOCENT!

Okay lar.. i not really so 'nice' till i really just accpet what J said. haha.. coz i sure tease back.. I'm not those pp who just stand there and get shoot for no reason.

The only things i care is that, whenever J do such things, it reminds me of T. Not to say sad, not to say feel down. Definitely no hatred or any things like that. Just that his image just run into my head n some memory. Of coz not that i still have those type of feeling.. in chinese word maybe is call 'hui yi'... or izit 'mian huai'???

Don't know~ Need to start study, next week got test n quiz.. final is just one month left.. SCARy~

Hope Ping's eyes get better today~ *Pray*

Tata~~~

P/S: that J must be devil to come to distract me from my study! Angel~~~ please come and save me~ 'let it go~ let it go~'

BAD BAD things

Oh crap!!! Exam is coming.. All the quizzes ,test and assignment, i didn't do well. Some nearly pass only.. Oh shit!!! N the most sad thing is, my physic test paper, all is silly mistake. Imagine.. things that i never get wrong for my whole life of secondary school , i get wrong in uni.. oh gosh~ And just because of the stupid r2 thing.. i remember the wrong things.. i lost 4 marks. haihz.. never every forget the difference between the equation for potential and force anymore..

Pirates of the Caribbean 3 is showing soon!! I really look forward to watch it.. haha.. can't wait to watch it.. one of the reason is because of Johnny Depp~ He is really fantastic.. hehe.. oso because got handsome guy in the movie.. Yeah~ is Orlanda Bloom. Of coz not to forget, really wonder how's the character of Chow Yun Fat in this movie.

I think this is call 'balasan'. But i didn't really tease people much oso.. how can this thing just fall on me. Crap~ kena mix match by my course mate, just because me and that guy is in the same group for one of my project. Please~~~ I'm not interested in this lar. Lucky i not really so stupid oso, i know what u guys are up to. Bler~ So, don't aspect i will react to you guys.. Nah~ haha.. coz i got experience on handling this kind of stuff. I'm not KM who always kena bully by u all. ( hehe sorry KM, sometimes, i joined in the bully group oso) Nah~ but i really didn't do anything, i just smile and laugh only mar. By the way, feel sorry for the guy who kena mix match oso..haha.

Told ping ping about it.. haha. so she told me some interesting story about hers oso.. Lolx.. i guess this type of thing just have to be everywhere.. haha.. coz ping ping oso kena. lolx. : p

OK~ Time for being funky n crazy is enough!!! TIMES TO BE SERIOUS!

Going to study. tata~~~

P/s: Thanks ping for listening to my crap.
And one person who i MUST thanks is EJ, coz she is really a helpful and nice friend of mine in uni.
KM too.. wink*

懒洋洋的星期天，听着DJ的声音，沙发式的音乐。。。
一杯茶，一本书。。。
多么幸福的星期天。。。

平静的心，
颖颖

Just for fun

Halo~ Now i'm in the campus. Very lazy to continue with my project. So went and surf around my friend's blog. Found this interesting test from thick frame ping blog. La~ people in bored are crazy. So i did one too, just for fun of it.

Create your own Friend Test here
Boring~ Not to say i have nothing to do. However, when your brain get stuck for those question. Really have no mood to continue.
K la. Is time to get serius n finish my work.
Tata~~~

UNI

Halo~~~ lazy blogger is here again! Is now getting mid of april and i still can't get use to my uni life yet. Since the start of the new semester, i have been such a 'good' girl. However, uni make me become lazy to switch on my computer, lazy to online, lazy to msn, lazy to blog.. Worst thing, it make me forget about my anime.. So i have been stop watching my anime since the day i start uni new semester. Say bye bye to my anime.. now i have left behind of my naruto for more than 10 episodes, which are so sad. And my "inuyasha" which happen got nearly 50 episodes in my harddisc but i just lazy to even open it.. Sigh~ and i just lost interest on 'death note' either.

Hehe.. but since i got one week holiday now, although it is not meant for relax. However, i can't just dump my anime away don't i? So this is anime week, and i believe i can catch up with my anime series.

Nah~ but not to forget... Tons of work to do this week. Dynamic project which i got so bad luck for it. Just for security purpose not to hurt anyone. Ask me personally won't u? if u r really interested what fall on me for my dynamic project. Physic lab calculation which i can't do at all. Just looking blank at the paper. Man~ i'm so dead. Shit thing is, all the quiz n test is coming after this holiday break. One week of holiday is not SUFFICIENT at all!!!

And WILLY, please don't tell me engineering suck and you already told me so. He told me so many times whenever i asked him question and i did complain sometimes. hehe *blushing

By the way, other than some bad attitude people. I met some nice and friendly people in uni.
However, they are not the same as 10 very stressed people gang. Not they are not nice, is just everyone is unique and they just give another feel to me. The 10 very stressed people can't be replace by anyone else. Sob~ i miss esther,dee, and all of u in g1.

Is kind of late now, if i don't get to bed now. My parent will come out and kick me off.
Good nite~

Chiang , the genius

"Boy Genius" Chiang dies and people think it is a great loss to us. I believe it is a waste that he just gone like this forever since he died before contribute anything to the world. The only thing he left is his name of being a genius, his great academic result. However, he haven't contribute anything to the world. Maybe too much of spot light on a person ain't a good thing. Too much of pressure and tension will get a person mentally ill. According to the news, he had skipped the normal education pathway and kept skipping level. I do believe that this decision had affected him, especially his mental. With the name of genius, he often being expected to be mature, be the best, where the pressure is on. Moreover, by skipping the ordinary education pathway, he might lose his friends. Being a genius, is lonely.
Why do i say so? I had experience once. Long time ago, Malaysia education had a exam which allow student who pass the exam to skip the 4th year and go to the 5th year. I had passed the exam and accepted to skip the 4th year. After that, people will look different on you, especially in my primary school, not much people get this offer, and i m the only one on my year accepted it. My old friends started to critic me, being a proud person. And at the same time, i had to make friends with my new classmates. What a terrible life it is! However, i'm glad that i found some good friends who willing to help me among my senior. They are now my buddy still~ Since i was a kid that time, wheneve people asked me, ' do u feel the pressure?' i would answer no. However, i know something is different. I would cried alone at night for no reason. Now i know, i was under tension n pressure plus being lonely.
Back to the topic, Chiang dies, his family are the one who feel the pain the most. However, their acts towards the media are really rude. If you like to stay on your own privacy, you can talk to the media politely don't u? You have your own idea, but the media has their own responsible too. What make me feel worse is they even beat up the photographer which is nearly 60 years old man. Being sad is not the reason for you to act like a 3 years old kid. Maybe even a 3 years old kid has a better EQ than u do. The lost of Chiang is not the media fault, the act of Chiang's family will only become the laughter of the others.

Death

Woke up quite late today, around 10am. The words still running in my head. I wanted to post it up yesterday when the thought was working. However, it is too late to be online. Yesterday , i went to Summit and i'm so lucky that there is a clearance of stock of Popular. Thus, yesterday was busy reading a book entitled "Tuesday with Morrie" as my friends recommended this book.
My tempo was slow compare to the normal reading speed of mine when i was reading this book. Till now, i'm not done yet, still got half book to go. However, there is some thought that i wanted to share with after i read that book.
Death is not that frightening, especially is your own death. You are not going to be attending your own funeral and you going to feel nothing coz you are nothing when you are death(I'm a free thinker). It is the path towards the death which mostly full of suffering and pain that make us fear. From my point of view, is the 'worry' deep inside our heart that make us fear of death. We are worry what will happen to our family when we are not here anymore. As human are 'sef-centered' animals, unconciously we thought the earth is going to stop rotating and the sun is not going to rise anymore when we are gone.That is human. However, life still goes on and sun still rise and the earth still rotate as usual.Thus, death is not scary u see.
However, i do believe that if it is a funeral or death of my beloved , eg. family, friends and so on. I will be scare. This is because, i will be sad, worry and seing them suffer.
Maybe is because we had been through the death of the others, and we feel sorry , feel sad, heart broken. Therefore we experience fear when we face death. And most of the time, when we knew that we are on the path toward death, only we realise 'have i done all things i wanted to do?','Do i still got enough time to do it?', and as the profesor in the book said,we will face and react with all the stuff differently if we know that we are going die. If we always treat today as the day that we going to die, maybe the world will be different.

Missing you,BB

I'm a very lazy blogger plus it was exam week so i didn't post it up till now.
One night before the last exam paper. It was raining again. Rainy day spoilt the mood of study. The feeling came out so sudden. Suddenly , i miss her so much that i can't bare with it anymore. So i turn on the computer and wrote her an e-mail. YUP!!! Is a SHE. She is very far away from Malaysia now. Okay, you might say, just get a plane n u will reach there. However, there is money and safety problem..
She used to call me 'si fu' which i never say any comment about it. Is just because i motivate her in study i think. In that very moment , i miss her so much. It is the first time i truly and really understand what is the feeling of missing someone and you just can't get to her side. It is so suffering.
She is a truly friend of mine that i will never forget and i will always love her. I really respect her and feel proud to have her as my friend. To me, she is strong mentally.She is active. She can be playfull. The most important thing, we got the same sense and thinking. Being apart from her is a sad case. Throughout this year, she motivate me alot. She is kind of like my recharger. Recharge this low battery here (mentally).
Hopefully, i can get to meet her soon. However, i know it might be in a few year time. Girl, i really love you n miss you!Take care!