EQ dropping................

Sigh~ i think my EQ just get lower.
Early in the morning still quite okay,
however once the class started, and feeling sleepy.
My mood become very bad and very easily get iritated by others.

So sorry for anyone i offended today if i did. I'm just lack of sleep, so J , don't worry u didn't offended me. Just i'm not in the mood to play with u. However, i do hope u stop doing all those kind of stuff.

That's the EQ thing come, i was always very patient about all those rumuors and teasing for my 18 years of life. However, i didn't know the reason why, but i actually feel iritated about the gossip this time. And what J did has actually leaving more negative marks on his friend which is initially neutral to me.
( my friends scale range from hate.... neutral ... like... love)

Normally neutral is for stranger and my partners which are not my friends. So J's friend, actually from neutral drop to the negative side. Although i didn't know the reason, and H actually didn't do anything, but that's what i feel.

I will be so relief if we can finish the case study 3 soon, so that i can have no more interaction with him anymore.

Disaster in Happy math class

Oh Gosh~ The fluid lab project is so difficult. can't get the value which we suppose to get..sigh~ Let's forget about it.

Was late for maths, get distracted by some nonsense things during tutoriol plus the question is difficult too. I didn't manage to do much of the Question. Really "thx" to "J" lo.. I know u are just trying to make the class more fun, er.. but that made my work undone.

Was laughing till 'nearly' stomachache in math tutoriol. I really don't know why that H so cooperative and just follow whatever J said. Crap~ What i was saying is really true from my heart,'J, go get a DV an record down the movie produce by u." So, J said, if i don't want to accept H, he will still continue to kacau me. So 'what if i already have bf?' Hehe.. for my good old buddy friends who know me, i'm not those who so good girl lo. So i replied him, 'as long as my bf don't mind, u can continue with ur monkey business' I guess he was shocked.

Then the climax of this comedy come, he said smth about surname, trying to relate that the bf to be H. So i told him, NO, my bf surename is C. Okay, so coincidence there is one Dr. C who used to be our math lecturer. So JY said, 'Har! Dr. C??' Oh crap~ Dr. C is an old man who is a bit bald. U can imagine the burst out laughing of everyone.. i'm not sure about other people, but i took few minutes to recover from that 'bomb' I guess JY too.

So i tot this can be the end of the story. However few minutes later, J start again. He said is okay to have an affair. And he promise that all of us will be quiet about that.
*sweat.. What the hack is this?
............................
Gosh~ My Happy math hours is gone.
So, i have to work on it at home.

P/s:C, sorry for involving u in. But i know u will forgive me. :)

奢望

现在最奢望的生活是，

周末的时候，

静静的待在家里，

听着收音机，

静静的听着，

静静的。。。就好

crappy

Blue~~~ mood~~~
I shouldn't have take coffee yesterday evening. The caffein work so well till i don't feel sleepy although is already 2 am in the morning. OH crap~ and i didnt' manage to study for my test. Kept chit chating on msn.
Of course everything has the pro and con. Manage to know more about my new friends, get in touch with some 'old' but close friends. hehe.. And the main thing is, online at mid night, i get the chances to chat with my 'big bro' once a while.
My friends are my source of energy.. So my spirit is now 'fully charged'. However, my body is not. haha.. due to lack of sleep. quite tired the whole day although i get a 8 hours sleep.
and crap, no mood to study~~~
Ok, enough crapping, leaving for dinner soon.
Hopefully i got the mood to study tonight..
Shit~ i have to burn mid night oil d.
Coffee!!! Save me!

Memory

~haihz~~~ Things in uni just remind me of the past. Get tease or should i say distract by J all the time whenever i meet him. J trying to be 'cupid' as he said himself , trying to convince me to ..... this i also not sure.. 'to make me believe that guy like me?' or ' to couple with that guy?' Okay i don't know. Either one also none of my business. That guy i also don't know, coz we just like normal only. He didn't say anything about the gossip and teasing of J.

All the things J did just remind me in the past where i used to get tease by this type of things before. The only thing different is, in the past experience, i really like the guy. Hey this time is like so sudden. And i'm so INNOCENT!

Okay lar.. i not really so 'nice' till i really just accpet what J said. haha.. coz i sure tease back.. I'm not those pp who just stand there and get shoot for no reason.

The only things i care is that, whenever J do such things, it reminds me of T. Not to say sad, not to say feel down. Definitely no hatred or any things like that. Just that his image just run into my head n some memory. Of coz not that i still have those type of feeling.. in chinese word maybe is call 'hui yi'... or izit 'mian huai'???

Don't know~ Need to start study, next week got test n quiz.. final is just one month left.. SCARy~

Hope Ping's eyes get better today~ *Pray*

Tata~~~

P/S: that J must be devil to come to distract me from my study! Angel~~~ please come and save me~ 'let it go~ let it go~'

BAD BAD things

Oh crap!!! Exam is coming.. All the quizzes ,test and assignment, i didn't do well. Some nearly pass only.. Oh shit!!! N the most sad thing is, my physic test paper, all is silly mistake. Imagine.. things that i never get wrong for my whole life of secondary school , i get wrong in uni.. oh gosh~ And just because of the stupid r2 thing.. i remember the wrong things.. i lost 4 marks. haihz.. never every forget the difference between the equation for potential and force anymore..

Pirates of the Caribbean 3 is showing soon!! I really look forward to watch it.. haha.. can't wait to watch it.. one of the reason is because of Johnny Depp~ He is really fantastic.. hehe.. oso because got handsome guy in the movie.. Yeah~ is Orlanda Bloom. Of coz not to forget, really wonder how's the character of Chow Yun Fat in this movie.

I think this is call 'balasan'. But i didn't really tease people much oso.. how can this thing just fall on me. Crap~ kena mix match by my course mate, just because me and that guy is in the same group for one of my project. Please~~~ I'm not interested in this lar. Lucky i not really so stupid oso, i know what u guys are up to. Bler~ So, don't aspect i will react to you guys.. Nah~ haha.. coz i got experience on handling this kind of stuff. I'm not KM who always kena bully by u all. ( hehe sorry KM, sometimes, i joined in the bully group oso) Nah~ but i really didn't do anything, i just smile and laugh only mar. By the way, feel sorry for the guy who kena mix match oso..haha.

Told ping ping about it.. haha. so she told me some interesting story about hers oso.. Lolx.. i guess this type of thing just have to be everywhere.. haha.. coz ping ping oso kena. lolx. : p

OK~ Time for being funky n crazy is enough!!! TIMES TO BE SERIOUS!

Going to study. tata~~~

P/s: Thanks ping for listening to my crap.
And one person who i MUST thanks is EJ, coz she is really a helpful and nice friend of mine in uni.
KM too.. wink*

懒洋洋的星期天，听着DJ的声音，沙发式的音乐。。。
一杯茶，一本书。。。
多么幸福的星期天。。。

平静的心，
颖颖

Just for fun

Halo~ Now i'm in the campus. Very lazy to continue with my project. So went and surf around my friend's blog. Found this interesting test from thick frame ping blog. La~ people in bored are crazy. So i did one too, just for fun of it.

Create your own Friend Test here
Boring~ Not to say i have nothing to do. However, when your brain get stuck for those question. Really have no mood to continue.
K la. Is time to get serius n finish my work.
Tata~~~

UNI

Halo~~~ lazy blogger is here again! Is now getting mid of april and i still can't get use to my uni life yet. Since the start of the new semester, i have been such a 'good' girl. However, uni make me become lazy to switch on my computer, lazy to online, lazy to msn, lazy to blog.. Worst thing, it make me forget about my anime.. So i have been stop watching my anime since the day i start uni new semester. Say bye bye to my anime.. now i have left behind of my naruto for more than 10 episodes, which are so sad. And my "inuyasha" which happen got nearly 50 episodes in my harddisc but i just lazy to even open it.. Sigh~ and i just lost interest on 'death note' either.

Hehe.. but since i got one week holiday now, although it is not meant for relax. However, i can't just dump my anime away don't i? So this is anime week, and i believe i can catch up with my anime series.

Nah~ but not to forget... Tons of work to do this week. Dynamic project which i got so bad luck for it. Just for security purpose not to hurt anyone. Ask me personally won't u? if u r really interested what fall on me for my dynamic project. Physic lab calculation which i can't do at all. Just looking blank at the paper. Man~ i'm so dead. Shit thing is, all the quiz n test is coming after this holiday break. One week of holiday is not SUFFICIENT at all!!!

And WILLY, please don't tell me engineering suck and you already told me so. He told me so many times whenever i asked him question and i did complain sometimes. hehe *blushing

By the way, other than some bad attitude people. I met some nice and friendly people in uni.
However, they are not the same as 10 very stressed people gang. Not they are not nice, is just everyone is unique and they just give another feel to me. The 10 very stressed people can't be replace by anyone else. Sob~ i miss esther,dee, and all of u in g1.

Is kind of late now, if i don't get to bed now. My parent will come out and kick me off.
Good nite~

Chiang , the genius

"Boy Genius" Chiang dies and people think it is a great loss to us. I believe it is a waste that he just gone like this forever since he died before contribute anything to the world. The only thing he left is his name of being a genius, his great academic result. However, he haven't contribute anything to the world. Maybe too much of spot light on a person ain't a good thing. Too much of pressure and tension will get a person mentally ill. According to the news, he had skipped the normal education pathway and kept skipping level. I do believe that this decision had affected him, especially his mental. With the name of genius, he often being expected to be mature, be the best, where the pressure is on. Moreover, by skipping the ordinary education pathway, he might lose his friends. Being a genius, is lonely.
Why do i say so? I had experience once. Long time ago, Malaysia education had a exam which allow student who pass the exam to skip the 4th year and go to the 5th year. I had passed the exam and accepted to skip the 4th year. After that, people will look different on you, especially in my primary school, not much people get this offer, and i m the only one on my year accepted it. My old friends started to critic me, being a proud person. And at the same time, i had to make friends with my new classmates. What a terrible life it is! However, i'm glad that i found some good friends who willing to help me among my senior. They are now my buddy still~ Since i was a kid that time, wheneve people asked me, ' do u feel the pressure?' i would answer no. However, i know something is different. I would cried alone at night for no reason. Now i know, i was under tension n pressure plus being lonely.
Back to the topic, Chiang dies, his family are the one who feel the pain the most. However, their acts towards the media are really rude. If you like to stay on your own privacy, you can talk to the media politely don't u? You have your own idea, but the media has their own responsible too. What make me feel worse is they even beat up the photographer which is nearly 60 years old man. Being sad is not the reason for you to act like a 3 years old kid. Maybe even a 3 years old kid has a better EQ than u do. The lost of Chiang is not the media fault, the act of Chiang's family will only become the laughter of the others.

Death

Woke up quite late today, around 10am. The words still running in my head. I wanted to post it up yesterday when the thought was working. However, it is too late to be online. Yesterday , i went to Summit and i'm so lucky that there is a clearance of stock of Popular. Thus, yesterday was busy reading a book entitled "Tuesday with Morrie" as my friends recommended this book.
My tempo was slow compare to the normal reading speed of mine when i was reading this book. Till now, i'm not done yet, still got half book to go. However, there is some thought that i wanted to share with after i read that book.
Death is not that frightening, especially is your own death. You are not going to be attending your own funeral and you going to feel nothing coz you are nothing when you are death(I'm a free thinker). It is the path towards the death which mostly full of suffering and pain that make us fear. From my point of view, is the 'worry' deep inside our heart that make us fear of death. We are worry what will happen to our family when we are not here anymore. As human are 'sef-centered' animals, unconciously we thought the earth is going to stop rotating and the sun is not going to rise anymore when we are gone.That is human. However, life still goes on and sun still rise and the earth still rotate as usual.Thus, death is not scary u see.
However, i do believe that if it is a funeral or death of my beloved , eg. family, friends and so on. I will be scare. This is because, i will be sad, worry and seing them suffer.
Maybe is because we had been through the death of the others, and we feel sorry , feel sad, heart broken. Therefore we experience fear when we face death. And most of the time, when we knew that we are on the path toward death, only we realise 'have i done all things i wanted to do?','Do i still got enough time to do it?', and as the profesor in the book said,we will face and react with all the stuff differently if we know that we are going die. If we always treat today as the day that we going to die, maybe the world will be different.

Missing you,BB

I'm a very lazy blogger plus it was exam week so i didn't post it up till now.
One night before the last exam paper. It was raining again. Rainy day spoilt the mood of study. The feeling came out so sudden. Suddenly , i miss her so much that i can't bare with it anymore. So i turn on the computer and wrote her an e-mail. YUP!!! Is a SHE. She is very far away from Malaysia now. Okay, you might say, just get a plane n u will reach there. However, there is money and safety problem..
She used to call me 'si fu' which i never say any comment about it. Is just because i motivate her in study i think. In that very moment , i miss her so much. It is the first time i truly and really understand what is the feeling of missing someone and you just can't get to her side. It is so suffering.
She is a truly friend of mine that i will never forget and i will always love her. I really respect her and feel proud to have her as my friend. To me, she is strong mentally.She is active. She can be playfull. The most important thing, we got the same sense and thinking. Being apart from her is a sad case. Throughout this year, she motivate me alot. She is kind of like my recharger. Recharge this low battery here (mentally).
Hopefully, i can get to meet her soon. However, i know it might be in a few year time. Girl, i really love you n miss you!Take care!

my good friend~ may lynn

opps.. got some paparazzi around..

help~~ he is trying to murder me.. but can he success by using that???

my good buddy~ stephen

my best friend ~ ping

some photoes early in the year...

"lazy girl"

La~~~ i'm here again... The title of my blog "lucky girl" should be change right??? Change to "lazy girl".. hehe.. lolx.. I study in SAM course mar.. the life is like just finish exam.. another exam coming in 2 weeks time.. killing me.. Hmm... just finish trial 2 weeks ago, n my results suck.. Although the forecast result is seem quite okay.. is actually not okay at all coz is actually up by one grade.. sigh~~ how can i change the whole entire me in the 2 weeks time..(less than 2 weeks for now)...
Actually this year, my blog should be full of one geng of people.. that is the 10 very stressed people.. a group of people i meet in SAM.. Is really fun being with them.. n we tooks lots of photoes.. But u noe.. there is a very lazy me.. so i didn't post up those photoes.. k lar.. i will try to post it slowly.. or not my computer will lag.. plus i don have all the photoes.. look like i need to ask from them or catch from their blog.. Stressed poeple had come out with some crazy idea in the early of the year.. that is .. we got a blog with 10 of us..If u are free, please pay a 'visit' to www.10verystressedpeople.blogspot.com
Is very different to be with them compare with all of my secondary school friends.. different type of relationship maybe...
My final is coming very soon, so i will be 'very' free after that. Thus, i will post more about them in detail after my final..

P/S: I passed my grade 8 piano exam.. is kind of shock since i really did it badly.. is just luck to have a kind hearted judge(izit judge or wat?)..lolx.. just thx to him so that i no need to waste my parents money anymore.. However, piano still part of my life. Can't stop it, is already a habit to play my piano whenver i'm bored(sometimes just pass by n get into it)

2006年10月14日

当心情郁闷时，坐在草地上。看着蔚蓝的天空，听着音乐。。。也许事情没那么坏。。。

Give

Today, i watched tv n found something very meaningful.

There is a theory said that human used to live like a monkey too. That's mean we don't know how to stand and we don't use our hands. However, human starts using hands because they want to give the foods and the best to their beloved. Therefore, they have to use their hands. Thus, appriciate your beloved one using your precious hands.

Some people might said, we use hands to eat mar.. lOlxx.. the answer is you can eat with your mouth only also.. But if you want to share it with your beloved, you need to take it and give to them.. So your hands is the one who GIVING.

To my neighbour:

To my "dear" neighbour staying behind my house:
Really "glad" that you are my neighbour. Really "thanks" for giving me so much of sleepless night.. I know you are "future" super star or "future" Malaysian Idol. Please forgive me that i don't know how to "appriciate" your talent. To me, your talent which always sing after 12 am, especially yesterday night at 2 am really is even more effective than coffee or the escence of chicken!!! Oh, thanks God because of you, i only manage to sleep for few hours yesterday night. And ya, i know i like to watch tv. But definitely not at midnight and with such a high volume. So no need to on your radio or your tv in such a high volume, coz i definitely not appriciate your kindness.
And yup!!! Can you keep your house clean pls... so that our housing area won't be full of mice n snake bcoz of you.. And ya, thx of you that my family could saw a snake at my house early in the morning last year.. Thx for your kindness so that we can 'save' our money to go to zoo to see a snake..
Lastly, i will be 'very glad' if you even can sing like misha omar or siti nurhaliza. But even you are britney or who ever, i'm definitely will not like to listen to your voice at mid night. Coz my patient is really out from what i can be.. So next time, if you sing at night,pls don't be shock that your window might break!!
THX!!!!

"Love" from your neighbour...

Dramatic life

Tomorow is the last day of my mid term exam. My friends and i had plan to go to 1 utama shopping after the last paper. However, i felt struggle in the evening. Tomorow is also the day of my primary school teacher retire.
This teacher had teach me for two years( the teacher who teach me the longest in my primary school). She is a very strict teacher, strict but really a good teacher. She often told us story in the class. I know it sound like what we normally write on the essay, sound like i 'beautify' the teacher right??? But this is the truth, i really met such a good teacher who really had affect me when i was young.
However,since she teach me, i know that she has a really weak body. She can't cane us. But she still cane us. So what happen after she cane us is that the next day she will be absent. And she cane people really very pain!!! I kena before... Her life is really tragic or should i say very dramatic. When i was standard 2, her daddy pass away. Although after standard 3 i never ever meet her anymore, i still get the news of her from my neighbour who is her collegeu( teacher oso). Her mommy also pass away few years later.. and the most poor things is she had abortion few times due to her weak body. I still can remeber on standard 3, she is so happy to born her children safely. She still show us the photoes of the baby... the whole album full with her baby and caption.
During my secondary school life, one day i receive a news that her child got cancer. I know it really sound very impossible how all this can happen to a person who love her children so much.
Now she is going to retire tomorow, not because she is old, is because she is sick too. Her kidney got problem, but i don't know what problem is that. Really feel very sad for her. She is definitely a good teacher to have.

I MISS MY BUDDY!!!

YEAH!!! 4 assigment, 2 is down, left only physic and biology!!! 2nd common test result is out. okok lar~~ still failed my chemistry exam. Sigh~ i think my chemistry lecturer start to worry bout this silly girl d. Coz he will now more frequently look at my working and ask me "understand?" Er... The truth is, chemistry, i'm blur. Those stuff like i noe them, they noe me. But not really very friends, so still need some time to 'get closer' with them.. haha..
Mid year exam is coming soon in two weeks time, really @#$%^&*.. just finish 2nd common test then the mid year exam coming d.. haha.. but i really look forward the mid year holiday, my mom planning to go China.. The original plan is go Japan, but too bad, the timing doesn't suite me.. so have to give up.
Really really very miss my secondary school friends. Especially my good buddy. Wah~~~ i really miss old day that i can just bully people and all my buddy will just save me out from the disaster.. hehe.. Sob~ They all now all got girlfriend d lar.. buddy here can throw away d... (-.-")... Then the others also busy with study, wan to go shopping oso no time.. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......... i really hate this college life. Make all my friends so busy, including my self...
I finally bought my self a really 'my' high heels that belong to me!! Last time always just borrow my sister high heels that make me going to PK anytime.. stupid idiot, her high heels is so high.. (that's y it call high heels) Nearly PK everytime wear hers..