Exam, nerding, motivating

Busy nerding this week. Nerding means study till like nerd and u are so focus till u ignore everything around u. I was nerding with 'nerding buddies' in library, and photo of nerding was snapped without realise (refer to J Y blog). Too concentrate~~~

Today can't really study intensively in the library. Very noisy ler~ Please lar, this is LIBRARY , u are in QUIET AREA. Not PASAR MALAM, or in DISCUSSION AREA. Discussion area is just few steps away. Please move there. Or not, please whisper, don't talk with your normal volume please. Thanks you.

What i did was ignored, although we were so irritated by the noise just behind us. haha.. the J who came later to ask question was too noisy till the guy sat near us kept looking at him. J, the God learn to lower down ur voice lar.

I was not in the mood of study today. Lazy lar.. feeling sick n tired. Sob~ exam coming only want to sick. Shoo.. shoo.. all the virus n bacteria..

To motivate myself and those who come n look at my blog while you are suppose to be studying.

Think of the Africa kids who lost their parents, no one to support , and most of them don't even get a chance for basic education. Be thankful, ur parents are there for u. U are receiving good education. U are able to study. So is just one more step.. after this few weeks. U are free temporarily before the new semester start. Just be thankful, this is for u, not ur parents, they don't benefits much from ur academic results. So u are studying for urself not anyone else.

U are already here, why don't u do ur best?

I miss u

I'm missing someone... and the feeling is so strong that i can't even ignore it.
I wish i could just have a word from him now. Even a 'hi' will do.
However, i guess I'll be disappointed tonight.

He is not my lover, not my brother, not my friends, not my partners.
He seems to be nobody.
No one know, he is special to me.

To me, he is my brother. A gift from God. I would like to share my every moment with him.

Brother, i miss u. I'm feeling sad without knowing why. My tears just can't hold anymore.
I need someone to support me.

Tonight, my heart has overtake my brain.

'Payment' to Ping

Just realise that i was being tag by ping long time ago( last year).. n i didn't notice.. sorry ya. She just told me when i said i had tagged her.. So this is what i owe u ping:

10 years ago, I ...
1) was a kid
2) was at primary school
3) still learning my piano
4) still look like a boy
5) 'am' very innocence

5 years ago, I ...
1) am a teenager
2) was studying in SMK USJ 12
3) just know my 'tailo'
4) learn the word 'banana'
5) am fat

1 year ago, I ...
1) was doing sam
2) was feeling stress
3) know one class of genius
4) just received SPM result , of coz satisfy
5) lost my self

Yesterday I ...
1) was awake till 6 am..
2) sleep at 6 am
3) doing math for the whole night ( i'm becoming a math freak)
4) listened to music
5) 'siao' already

5 most recent songs I've listened to...
1) Every heart -Boa
2) Dearest - Ayumi Hamasaki
3) Part of me- Ayumi Hamasaki
4) 那年夏天宁静的海-王心凌
5) 怀念- Jolin 蔡依林

5 Songs I know all the words to ...
1)All forget d looo.

5 Things I really Want
1) pass all my exam
2) get a baby grand piano
3) read more books
4) find back myself
5) my family to be safe n healthy

5 Things I should be doing ...
1) study
2) revision
3) sleep
4) shut down my computer
5) pack up my bag

5 Biggest Joy in my life...
1) is my friends
2) my family
3) fall in love
4) read
5) Music

5 people I tag ...
Ok lar. this time i won't be so bad anymore.. no name.. whoever want to be tag. tag urself lar har..

time to study..

2 AM in the morning

Okay. now is 2 am in the morning.. Gosh! Yes , i kena tag by JY. sigh~ shouldn't have check on ur blog lo. haha , no la. kidding. So there u go...

Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Ng Chin Ying
Birth Date: 13/2/89
Current Status: Single
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: Black

Layer 2: On the Inside
My Heritage: Chinese
My Fears: Unknown
My Weaknesses: Too sensitive or too insensitive sometimes, stupidity
My Perfect Pizza: No particular like

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thoughts waking up: What's the time now?
My bedtime: 10pm to 11pm normally . When near to exam or weekend, 1 to 2 am
My Most Missed Memory: Secondary school

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Group
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee: Both

Layer 5: Do You...
Smoke: No, i hate smokers.
Curse: In my heart. I hate to hear pp swear, esp those who like to swear in every sentence they speak.
Take a Shower: Of coz yes.
Have a Crush: yes
Go to School: yes
Want to Get Married: depends on fate.
Believe in Yourself: yes
You're a Health Freak: er.. not sure

Layer 6: In the Past
Drink Alcohol: yes. a bit lo...
Gone to the Mall: *faint.. yes lar
Been on Stage: Yes
Eaten Sushi: Yes.
Dyed Your Hair: No

Layer 7: Have You Ever...
Played a Stripping Game: No
Changed Who You Were to Fit In: never tot of it.

Layer 8: Age You're Hoping to...
Get Married: After 25

Layer 9: In a Guy
Best Eye Color: Black
Best Hair Color: Black
Short or Long Hair: short

Layer 10:
What You Were Doing
A Minute Ago: doing this tag
An Hour Ago: doing Maths
Four and a Half Hours ago: doing math
A Month Ago: sleeping
A Year Ago: Feeling stress of SAM life???

Layer 11: Finish The Sentences
I love: you
I feel: calm
I hate:smokers
I hide: my heart
I miss: someone
I need: more time

Layer 12: Tag 4 People
Sorry to
Thick frame ping
Jun Jun
Wait. i can't think of any name....
Whoever who read this and want to kena tag lolx.
haha.. that should be more than 4 then.

Crap this thing took me about 20 minutes..
study study study

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Words by lucky girl.

Math tutoriol hours

This is the continuous of the math story in the previous post....

So, J who thought he offended me n we had apologized to each other.
U thought things just over like that? At first i thought that too, since he said he will not disturb me anymore. However i guess like what he said, if i don't do this, I'm not J.

Everything seems normal on the pass few days. till math tutorial hours came.

Sigh~ He start his nonsense again. What i shouldn't go vacation with my family lar.. what will kena bomb lar.. should go redang with them lar.. er.. * touch wood* I'm going to holiday soon and he is cursing me by now.

(None of my business.. none of my business.. that's what on my brain at that moment).

And crap~ as u know, when someone always 'attack' u, will u be more alert and careful with that person?? Will u??? OF coz u will right!!! I didn't say anything, i just turn back n look only.. Guess what the J said?? "Or... u like me izit??" Friends, i need a plastic bag.. quick.. before i vomit on the floor... So coincide that day i was terribly sick. I can't talk much, or not i would cough non-stop.

I can't help but laughing at the end. Since i was ready to go, i waited JY in front of her desk. Of coz J will not leave any chance to ejek me. However this thing really make me sweat... "CY, don't miss me ar!!!" * sweat''' I can't stand it and i wanted to laugh, however i started to cough. No no no.. this is not the end yet..

"ok , i know lar.. u miss H lar" ... *triple sweat.. since i just recovered from cough, of coz i not going to cough again right? " oh.. just now i said, u cough. Now i said H , u din cough.." Human, what the hell in this world?? Who said such rule or things??? Who set it??

Sigh~ Haha.. of coz he is not really that lucky on that day. Coz he was SOoooo surprise that JY can drive.. and he was considered to has humiliated girls for looking down on girls. He thought girls can't drive izit? Please lar.. haha.. but thanks to JY coz i can't drive alone yet also.. hehe..

Phew~ As i said, I'm quite lucky as well. coz next week i going to shift my last math tutorial to some other day, which he couldn't since he got other class.. Hooray~~~ No more J in my math tutorial.. Haha.. my peaceful last math tutorial.

messy

I think God is fair. However, sometimes i hope God is unfair. Cause i really can't stand pp with zero knowledge of common sense. I guess those "genius" really can't live without their parents.

Remember the Chiang genius i mention before? He was also one of the "0 common sense" pp in life. The clothes they wear, what they are having for lunch and every basic things that we normal human things that u can do on ur own, they just can't do it.

And yes, I realise there are such people appears in my life. Since i'm a very bad tempered person, i get very annoyed whenever i get distracted by 'genius' when i m busy. They can't even fill in a form, don't even notice some small stuff that even the public thought u should know. Really nonsence! One of them, i guess is the mother fault, cause the mother is so protective and do all for him most of the time. Crap~ So when the mother can't help. I will kena kau kau... asking this n that. To me, all the question asked is so commen sense till i think my younger brother would know what to do.

Oh Gosh~ i think i want to die if this thing happen to me everyday. i will die of high blood pressure, which i think i will coz i m really a bad tempered person.

Physic assignment is so troublesome. Although there is another project, thanks to my partner, i don't need to care much. Eiii.. but wait. when i was doing the 1st one, i also did on my own most of the time oso.. ok.. so i tarik balik my thanks.joking

Messy mood~

I watch pirates 3 today! Fantastic good, although it might get a bit bored in the middle. Overall is worth it. nearly 3 hours show, with lovely Johnny Depp and handsome Orlando Bloom. laughing through out the show. I have a wonderful evening with su , jac, n gwen.

To my lovely friends,

Please don't be sad. I know you are having hard times, sorry for not being by your side when you are sad. I know is impossible to make u smile at this moment, or even to make u feel happy. Is okay to cry, is okay to be down.

I know you are strong , and one day u will be able to stand up and smile like you always do.

Before that,
I know i couldn't accompany u physically by your side, or u might want to be alone.
However my blessing will always be with you. I will always support you.

When you need a person to talk with or listen, don't hesitate to get me.
I'll always by your side.

EQ dropping................

Sigh~ i think my EQ just get lower.
Early in the morning still quite okay,
however once the class started, and feeling sleepy.
My mood become very bad and very easily get iritated by others.

So sorry for anyone i offended today if i did. I'm just lack of sleep, so J , don't worry u didn't offended me. Just i'm not in the mood to play with u. However, i do hope u stop doing all those kind of stuff.

That's the EQ thing come, i was always very patient about all those rumuors and teasing for my 18 years of life. However, i didn't know the reason why, but i actually feel iritated about the gossip this time. And what J did has actually leaving more negative marks on his friend which is initially neutral to me.
( my friends scale range from hate.... neutral ... like... love)

Normally neutral is for stranger and my partners which are not my friends. So J's friend, actually from neutral drop to the negative side. Although i didn't know the reason, and H actually didn't do anything, but that's what i feel.

I will be so relief if we can finish the case study 3 soon, so that i can have no more interaction with him anymore.

Disaster in Happy math class

Oh Gosh~ The fluid lab project is so difficult. can't get the value which we suppose to get..sigh~ Let's forget about it.

Was late for maths, get distracted by some nonsense things during tutoriol plus the question is difficult too. I didn't manage to do much of the Question. Really "thx" to "J" lo.. I know u are just trying to make the class more fun, er.. but that made my work undone.

Was laughing till 'nearly' stomachache in math tutoriol. I really don't know why that H so cooperative and just follow whatever J said. Crap~ What i was saying is really true from my heart,'J, go get a DV an record down the movie produce by u." So, J said, if i don't want to accept H, he will still continue to kacau me. So 'what if i already have bf?' Hehe.. for my good old buddy friends who know me, i'm not those who so good girl lo. So i replied him, 'as long as my bf don't mind, u can continue with ur monkey business' I guess he was shocked.

Then the climax of this comedy come, he said smth about surname, trying to relate that the bf to be H. So i told him, NO, my bf surename is C. Okay, so coincidence there is one Dr. C who used to be our math lecturer. So JY said, 'Har! Dr. C??' Oh crap~ Dr. C is an old man who is a bit bald. U can imagine the burst out laughing of everyone.. i'm not sure about other people, but i took few minutes to recover from that 'bomb' I guess JY too.

So i tot this can be the end of the story. However few minutes later, J start again. He said is okay to have an affair. And he promise that all of us will be quiet about that.
*sweat.. What the hack is this?
............................
Gosh~ My Happy math hours is gone.
So, i have to work on it at home.

P/s:C, sorry for involving u in. But i know u will forgive me. :)

奢望

现在最奢望的生活是，

周末的时候，

静静的待在家里，

听着收音机，

静静的听着，

静静的。。。就好

crappy

Blue~~~ mood~~~
I shouldn't have take coffee yesterday evening. The caffein work so well till i don't feel sleepy although is already 2 am in the morning. OH crap~ and i didnt' manage to study for my test. Kept chit chating on msn.
Of course everything has the pro and con. Manage to know more about my new friends, get in touch with some 'old' but close friends. hehe.. And the main thing is, online at mid night, i get the chances to chat with my 'big bro' once a while.
My friends are my source of energy.. So my spirit is now 'fully charged'. However, my body is not. haha.. due to lack of sleep. quite tired the whole day although i get a 8 hours sleep.
and crap, no mood to study~~~
Ok, enough crapping, leaving for dinner soon.
Hopefully i got the mood to study tonight..
Shit~ i have to burn mid night oil d.
Coffee!!! Save me!

Memory

~haihz~~~ Things in uni just remind me of the past. Get tease or should i say distract by J all the time whenever i meet him. J trying to be 'cupid' as he said himself , trying to convince me to ..... this i also not sure.. 'to make me believe that guy like me?' or ' to couple with that guy?' Okay i don't know. Either one also none of my business. That guy i also don't know, coz we just like normal only. He didn't say anything about the gossip and teasing of J.

All the things J did just remind me in the past where i used to get tease by this type of things before. The only thing different is, in the past experience, i really like the guy. Hey this time is like so sudden. And i'm so INNOCENT!

Okay lar.. i not really so 'nice' till i really just accpet what J said. haha.. coz i sure tease back.. I'm not those pp who just stand there and get shoot for no reason.

The only things i care is that, whenever J do such things, it reminds me of T. Not to say sad, not to say feel down. Definitely no hatred or any things like that. Just that his image just run into my head n some memory. Of coz not that i still have those type of feeling.. in chinese word maybe is call 'hui yi'... or izit 'mian huai'???

Don't know~ Need to start study, next week got test n quiz.. final is just one month left.. SCARy~

Hope Ping's eyes get better today~ *Pray*

Tata~~~

P/S: that J must be devil to come to distract me from my study! Angel~~~ please come and save me~ 'let it go~ let it go~'

BAD BAD things

Oh crap!!! Exam is coming.. All the quizzes ,test and assignment, i didn't do well. Some nearly pass only.. Oh shit!!! N the most sad thing is, my physic test paper, all is silly mistake. Imagine.. things that i never get wrong for my whole life of secondary school , i get wrong in uni.. oh gosh~ And just because of the stupid r2 thing.. i remember the wrong things.. i lost 4 marks. haihz.. never every forget the difference between the equation for potential and force anymore..

Pirates of the Caribbean 3 is showing soon!! I really look forward to watch it.. haha.. can't wait to watch it.. one of the reason is because of Johnny Depp~ He is really fantastic.. hehe.. oso because got handsome guy in the movie.. Yeah~ is Orlanda Bloom. Of coz not to forget, really wonder how's the character of Chow Yun Fat in this movie.

I think this is call 'balasan'. But i didn't really tease people much oso.. how can this thing just fall on me. Crap~ kena mix match by my course mate, just because me and that guy is in the same group for one of my project. Please~~~ I'm not interested in this lar. Lucky i not really so stupid oso, i know what u guys are up to. Bler~ So, don't aspect i will react to you guys.. Nah~ haha.. coz i got experience on handling this kind of stuff. I'm not KM who always kena bully by u all. ( hehe sorry KM, sometimes, i joined in the bully group oso) Nah~ but i really didn't do anything, i just smile and laugh only mar. By the way, feel sorry for the guy who kena mix match oso..haha.

Told ping ping about it.. haha. so she told me some interesting story about hers oso.. Lolx.. i guess this type of thing just have to be everywhere.. haha.. coz ping ping oso kena. lolx. : p

OK~ Time for being funky n crazy is enough!!! TIMES TO BE SERIOUS!

Going to study. tata~~~

P/s: Thanks ping for listening to my crap.
And one person who i MUST thanks is EJ, coz she is really a helpful and nice friend of mine in uni.
KM too.. wink*

懒洋洋的星期天，听着DJ的声音，沙发式的音乐。。。
一杯茶，一本书。。。
多么幸福的星期天。。。

平静的心，
颖颖

Just for fun

Halo~ Now i'm in the campus. Very lazy to continue with my project. So went and surf around my friend's blog. Found this interesting test from thick frame ping blog. La~ people in bored are crazy. So i did one too, just for fun of it.

Create your own Friend Test here
Boring~ Not to say i have nothing to do. However, when your brain get stuck for those question. Really have no mood to continue.
K la. Is time to get serius n finish my work.
Tata~~~

UNI

Halo~~~ lazy blogger is here again! Is now getting mid of april and i still can't get use to my uni life yet. Since the start of the new semester, i have been such a 'good' girl. However, uni make me become lazy to switch on my computer, lazy to online, lazy to msn, lazy to blog.. Worst thing, it make me forget about my anime.. So i have been stop watching my anime since the day i start uni new semester. Say bye bye to my anime.. now i have left behind of my naruto for more than 10 episodes, which are so sad. And my "inuyasha" which happen got nearly 50 episodes in my harddisc but i just lazy to even open it.. Sigh~ and i just lost interest on 'death note' either.

Hehe.. but since i got one week holiday now, although it is not meant for relax. However, i can't just dump my anime away don't i? So this is anime week, and i believe i can catch up with my anime series.

Nah~ but not to forget... Tons of work to do this week. Dynamic project which i got so bad luck for it. Just for security purpose not to hurt anyone. Ask me personally won't u? if u r really interested what fall on me for my dynamic project. Physic lab calculation which i can't do at all. Just looking blank at the paper. Man~ i'm so dead. Shit thing is, all the quiz n test is coming after this holiday break. One week of holiday is not SUFFICIENT at all!!!

And WILLY, please don't tell me engineering suck and you already told me so. He told me so many times whenever i asked him question and i did complain sometimes. hehe *blushing

By the way, other than some bad attitude people. I met some nice and friendly people in uni.
However, they are not the same as 10 very stressed people gang. Not they are not nice, is just everyone is unique and they just give another feel to me. The 10 very stressed people can't be replace by anyone else. Sob~ i miss esther,dee, and all of u in g1.

Is kind of late now, if i don't get to bed now. My parent will come out and kick me off.
Good nite~

Chiang , the genius

"Boy Genius" Chiang dies and people think it is a great loss to us. I believe it is a waste that he just gone like this forever since he died before contribute anything to the world. The only thing he left is his name of being a genius, his great academic result. However, he haven't contribute anything to the world. Maybe too much of spot light on a person ain't a good thing. Too much of pressure and tension will get a person mentally ill. According to the news, he had skipped the normal education pathway and kept skipping level. I do believe that this decision had affected him, especially his mental. With the name of genius, he often being expected to be mature, be the best, where the pressure is on. Moreover, by skipping the ordinary education pathway, he might lose his friends. Being a genius, is lonely.
Why do i say so? I had experience once. Long time ago, Malaysia education had a exam which allow student who pass the exam to skip the 4th year and go to the 5th year. I had passed the exam and accepted to skip the 4th year. After that, people will look different on you, especially in my primary school, not much people get this offer, and i m the only one on my year accepted it. My old friends started to critic me, being a proud person. And at the same time, i had to make friends with my new classmates. What a terrible life it is! However, i'm glad that i found some good friends who willing to help me among my senior. They are now my buddy still~ Since i was a kid that time, wheneve people asked me, ' do u feel the pressure?' i would answer no. However, i know something is different. I would cried alone at night for no reason. Now i know, i was under tension n pressure plus being lonely.
Back to the topic, Chiang dies, his family are the one who feel the pain the most. However, their acts towards the media are really rude. If you like to stay on your own privacy, you can talk to the media politely don't u? You have your own idea, but the media has their own responsible too. What make me feel worse is they even beat up the photographer which is nearly 60 years old man. Being sad is not the reason for you to act like a 3 years old kid. Maybe even a 3 years old kid has a better EQ than u do. The lost of Chiang is not the media fault, the act of Chiang's family will only become the laughter of the others.

Death

Woke up quite late today, around 10am. The words still running in my head. I wanted to post it up yesterday when the thought was working. However, it is too late to be online. Yesterday , i went to Summit and i'm so lucky that there is a clearance of stock of Popular. Thus, yesterday was busy reading a book entitled "Tuesday with Morrie" as my friends recommended this book.
My tempo was slow compare to the normal reading speed of mine when i was reading this book. Till now, i'm not done yet, still got half book to go. However, there is some thought that i wanted to share with after i read that book.
Death is not that frightening, especially is your own death. You are not going to be attending your own funeral and you going to feel nothing coz you are nothing when you are death(I'm a free thinker). It is the path towards the death which mostly full of suffering and pain that make us fear. From my point of view, is the 'worry' deep inside our heart that make us fear of death. We are worry what will happen to our family when we are not here anymore. As human are 'sef-centered' animals, unconciously we thought the earth is going to stop rotating and the sun is not going to rise anymore when we are gone.That is human. However, life still goes on and sun still rise and the earth still rotate as usual.Thus, death is not scary u see.
However, i do believe that if it is a funeral or death of my beloved , eg. family, friends and so on. I will be scare. This is because, i will be sad, worry and seing them suffer.
Maybe is because we had been through the death of the others, and we feel sorry , feel sad, heart broken. Therefore we experience fear when we face death. And most of the time, when we knew that we are on the path toward death, only we realise 'have i done all things i wanted to do?','Do i still got enough time to do it?', and as the profesor in the book said,we will face and react with all the stuff differently if we know that we are going die. If we always treat today as the day that we going to die, maybe the world will be different.