I am feeling quite a mess right now. Kind of blank on what should I do. Just feel like leaving my mind blank, staring at my laptop, lose focus and wait for bed time to strike. 12? 1am? Recently sleep at 11pm, and it seems too early for engineering students huh? Get many shock response when I wish others good night at 11pm.
Last semester's result is not good. Overall is better than the semester before, and I was relieved when I knew I passed all my papers. However, I knew I can do better, I caught panic in the exam hall and screwed up my papers. I knew it was caused by my lack of confidence of my understanding, slacked off too much during lectures/tutorials. Although I tried to catch up, I was not confident. What has passed is past, new semester and is time to move on.
In this new semester, I have promise to myself, no matter how bad, how boring is the class, I shall never skip class anymore. Not for any reason. There is always something to learn, I always believe every individual has something we can learn, even from a kid. Since the lecturer is able to be our LECTURER, the knowledge must be there, is really depends on our attitude and will of learning.Will find a way to survive through the long and continuous lecture hours.
This semester has some heavy workloads due to projects and lab reports, guess will be occupied by assignments. Will try to stay positive, get enough sleep, and keep on track of study to prevent the horrible nightmare.
Something mom always told us since young are so true, although she don't say that to me anymore.
" What you learn is what you get, you don't study for others, coz others won't gain benefit when you do"
" No matter how irrelevant you think what you learn to your future, or you might think it might not be useful or waste of time. However, you never know, the knowledge that you learn might appear to be useful one day."
Thanks Mom.
