New year eve

31st of December of 2009 - the last day of 2009

I wanted to check on my 2009 resolution list on this very last day and realized I didn't have one.

I remember I had a lot of fun during 2008, bundle of joy and laughter. Can't even remember any sad things happened on that year.. Only remember Design II team.. 4 of us, Pinny, Kuay, Shir Ley and I.. working on the wheel chair calculation.. study group.. Wei Loon, Wing Li, Jonathan, Andrew, Sean.. those Sing K moments.. We love to head to red box whenever we can and to destress.

2009 - a year with tears and joys.

It started with a bad opening. I scolded Jonathan's house and I was disappointed. I realized things and humans are different, I reevaluated the way I think. I know my good and bad is to trust people easily, however, now I guess I will think twice and reminds myself. What make me frustrated was I do not know who to trust anymore. When both sides who pin point the fingers to each other, I lost my direction. I seek help from a friend, and it did helped me get through the problem. Coz I start to understand, the problem is just when a person is angry, they might be exaggerating the issue. I should have moderate both of the comments when I was picking the information. Good thing is, Jon bother to explain to me, Wing Li and Pinny acted stupid to make me laugh... and I apologize for scolding people as it is none of my business.

First semester was very relax with all the weekend outings, cosy Friday night with Shir Ley. Life couldn't be any better. As I always tell my friends in Malaysia, I am happy in Melbourne. =) with all lovely friends.. Friends in Melbourne that enjoys life together, friends in Malaysia who supported me, family who trusted me, sister who visit me frequently. It was very rare for me to feel homesick in Melbourne with my sister visit, and parents during mid of the year.

However, second semester was a miserable for me. My friends realized I lost my smile. Although I have been more quiet since first semester, I've intentionally be more quiet second semester. I didn't want to say much as I afraid I might admit on something I don't want to admit it myself. I was afraid to break down if I voice it out. I tried to bear it myself without troubling others, yet I knew I did affected others with such a low mood. Especially during those stress moment of projects, I have been throwing tempered at people. Hurt has been done, and I could only apologize.

If there is really God, I'll seriously say thanks for surrounding me with good friends. Tecky could have scolded me back and things will get worse. Loon couldn't have bother to listen to my unorganized rant and etc. My housemates could have just ignore all my bad moods.. I got lovely housemates you see. =) Of course, not only them, Pinny, Jon... a lot of them.. sorry that I didn't thanks one by one. Just wish you guys and girls know, I love you people. =)

Dear Su who always hit the jack point, miss you at this moment. I'll never let you go =) Tell Sok to go away~ =P

Dear Bernice, Stephen, Ping who listen to my random issues, always there for me.. gave me advice. Sometime I couldn't believe our friendship has last this long, and I wish it will never die. =)

My love pet brother, Jacky, who I'm sure didn't bother to read this. I am so glad you are getting marry.. very happy for you, as you manage to get through. You dote me and always surprise me, even with your marriage.. haha.. that always make my day. You are a good brother, and I'll always love you brother. Although it sounds weird whenever others know about our story, that's life. Our relationship reminds me that, nothing is impossible in this world. Miracle does happen.

However, is a good ending for 2009. The sorrow of mine ends when there are new laughter in my life.

Our very good neighbour- Bettina street guys =)

Those days with YC, Bing, Keat Ming, Kha Liang, Jason and Alan... are really memorable and fun. Just like my 'gor' said, wish we could have know each other since Year 1. However, I think is about fate. If we know each other since year 1, it might be not this fun. You will never know. I am grateful that we met, and have time to gather around even though time is short. Even 10 or 20 years down the road, we can still meet again. By that time, some of us might be married, some attend gathering with kids.. millionaire (maybe.. haha). whatever it is. I am sure.. we are still friends, and there will be bundle of joys. =)

My companions in Melbourne

It has been long since my last post, always ended up discard my post before I even finish a sentence. Yeap, getting lazy now a days, especially I'm now back at Malaysia!

It is almost 3 weeks back, mosquitos start to fall in love with me and "kissing" me, leaving me with red dot everywhere. (Only then I understand my 'jie' keat ming, personal message abt 'red dots').

10 months away from this country, I won't deny the facts that I have changed physically and mentally. It has been a happening year to most of us. Physically, of course gained weight and fats. haha.. It is very hard to resist on the nice foods in Melbourne, not only those Italian foods and gelato at Lygon street, the CHOCOLATE'S cafe everywhere in the city, Korean foods, Chinese... etc.. However, I'll think the main reasons is because of my HOUSEMATES in Morton!

I've the BEST housemates you can ever imagine, everyone is a good cook in the house. =)

Hsiao Hui Ma~ Today I ate some Malay's curry puff, and I miss your curry puff so much. Her portugese tart is better than the one selling at the bakery lo... I am NOT exaggerating! What ever foods you want to eat, just tell Hsiao Hui Ma, she will make it for you and is definitely delicious. (For e.g. Char Kuey Teow, Hokkien Mee, even Prawn noodle.. where can you find such thing in Melbourne? Morton street) and she is the one who take care our make up and hair (including cut) all this while. =) She is just like a mother of Morton. Miss you, Hsiao Hui Ma.

My twin sister, Shir Ley who is now still in NZ, hehe.. she is coming back SOON~ I am very glad to have her with me most of the time ( seriously almost 24 hours ). However, those guys just don't understand that we both need privacy and private time alone sometime, there were times those guys misunderstood that we two have problem with each other. Luckily, we 2 know is just that we can't face each other 24 hours, sooner or later, it will create problems. Thanks Shir Ley for her understanding. Her big cookies seriously shocked me with the size of it, never thought cookies can be that big... she is also the guinea pig of my cooking most of the time =P Especially semester 1 where we were more relax. Steaks, pasta, wine with movie.. haha.. I think we enjoyed life quite well on first semester =) and of course coffee =P ( we were coffee addicted)
2nd semester, we went throught a lot of sleepless nights, and the last one is always the most memorable one. Will never forget the stargazing night with you and the others.. and the night where we waited for the sunrise. None of this will be able to happen without her.

I better than that "sis", only put your nice photo =)

Yi Mei! the photographer! going out with her, you will never need your camera =P Yi Mei will always be there with her camera ready.. hehe.. and it soon going to be a 500D. With so many DSLR camera around, our digital camera can send to recycle bin d ( Can recycle? google it.) She made great dessert as well, cheese cake, sai mai lou~ and she is a great planner/organizer. Thanks for her effort in most of the trips. She is the one who always bring us around for good foods and scenary. Thanks girl, see you soon during Chrismas! Looking forward for Christmas~ and glad to be your housemate again next year. ( Yes, we definitely will control our diet next year)


Of course we will never forget our very quiet housemate - Jia Wei. Most of the time she is very quiet, sometime I don't even notice whether she is home or not even though her room is just next to mine. ( Most probably is my observation is too poor.) Although we are not that close, she is definitely a good housemate. Who can tahan we so many crazy girls being so noisy at home without complaining?

Done with housemates, let's see my GROUPMATES who stayed at Evelyn~

Although we always dine out together, we (only his house and my house) rarely eat together at home (complaint by Jon). Actually what he said is true, it can be count by one hand, is just twice. Once is the Bak Kut Teh, and last is the steamboat. SL and I were in their team (Sean included) for the Design project which killed ALL of us. All the sleepless nights and stress caused by it were painful. (Even the outcome of it, still I think we done a great job, good work!) One thing I am very sorry is that, I treated the monkey king badly during the project. I am sorry to have such a bad attitude when I was stress. Sorry Max. Thanks to the project as well, I get to know the rest better such as Matt, YZ.. I think I rarely talk to them back at Sunway. Not mention that I always being comment as 'look cool' when other don't know me well. (Face problem). Just like how I felt about YZ, I tot he was COOL, actually he is CUTE. =P


At the end of Evelyn street, there is another house who always the place to hold the b'day party. The guys in this house meant a lot to me. They are always there for me whenever I break down crying (Even midnight). Care for me when they think I am not alright. Thanks for being a listener and advisor of mine. =) I appreciate it and you guys really helped me to get through my low time. I know they don't read blogs.. and who cares. Still..

I feel sorry that I was grumpy at Loon, even scolded him when I was stress. I am sorry Loon, I know I should have change, and I said I will , still I failed. When the rest of the world were being careful with me, Loon always being direct and tell me the truth. Thanks for your truth, and your truely advice that woke me up from the nightmare. Wing and brother, thanks for the concern. You guys has been supporting me all this while, and I really really appreciate it. Really love you guys, and wish we have another great year ahead.

This one susah sangat.... How am I going to name all the Halls name?

Halls people....

Thanks Kuay and Chun Wei for organizing the trips, being drivers ... without you guys.. I think I would have rot in Morton for my holidays. For all the joys and funs~ Cheers~ Let's go Notts =P

Thanks Chee Hong for updating me with all the news, especially entertainment and shows.. if not, I would have been very outdated by now. Yes.. please continue spam my msn with youtube links. haha..

The only mechanical engineerng girl who stay in dome, JY. She has been very patient with me especially on 2nd semester. She has been a great help to teach me and analyse my computing code. hehe.. and she bake good cookies! Sunway ppl, bug her about it next year. =P


haha.. and my NEIGHBOUR- Bettina street~

We were not that close til the late of 2nd semester, which is kind of a regret. They are good neighbours who always bring us 'tong shui', 'char siew'.. and they make good foods! My sis still miss you guy's salad til now. (YC! Where is the buttercake?) We had a lot of great time together, and those memorable moment will always be remember. Although it was a short time, there are lot of memory. Ballarat, Grampion and Lakes Entrance trip were awesome~ I am sure there is always a chance to do it again. So.. don't emo my 'sis'..

See... Jie, I so good, put such a leng zhai photo of yours.
(Leng zhai or Jie, sorry I confused.. or should I call you xxxxx =P)

Jason is the creative cook in Bettina.. but one thing which I don't understand why. He doesn't seems to like to do it himself.. hmm... No idea.. He make good foods! Need to bug him more next year.. wahaha.. and I managed to make him to fry KL and I eggs for breakfast in Lakes Entrance... hehe..


Kha Liang.. the one who can wake up when breakfast is INFRONT of him. =.=|||
With the 1000D in hand, another photographer that will do anything to take good photos. Other than that, he recorded all those stupid-funny-idiotic we girls did in the car. =.=.... So I actually can't really 'dak zui' him lar.. lol. A very nice and gentle guy. hehe. can see that he really love his gf. Nah.. no worry lar.. you are going to be in M'sia next year. Will miss you when we are having fun =P webcam webcam..

YC, another photographer.. hehe.. I'll never forget that you lay on that stiff rock just to take a photo. Pro~ Don't be fool by his serious face lo. He can be as crazy as we girls... haha.. our good drivers as well.. Thanks for the thought of trying to adjust my head with an emergency break when I was sleeping in the car. ( good idea, but I wonder will I fly out of the car instead) See ya next year la.. will take lots of M'sia foods photo for you =P ( being evil, wink*)


Of course I will not forget the old man of the HOUSE- Bing.

also known as Bing-pedia. That's right, not only about age.. but this walking -pedia really knows a lot (Experience really makes the difference =P). There are always time you can see us quietly listening to this old man lecture. Other than that,out of all the photographers, this fella really crazy over his dslr. ok lar.. can't deny that, with such a good camera, he should really make full use of it. haha.. shall wait for the day he get the mark II.

Sleeping "Beauty"

OK la...

Joking...

The pro
(avoid being kill/lecture by old man)

I'm not very close with Alan but his 'Da da tiao' affected most of us. Anything to credit on when someone don't want to admit it. Just say is 'Alan do it.'. Wonder...Alan, why not 'xiao xiao tiao'?

The sunset that I missed... was in grocerry shopping/house.. Will definitely go for it again =P However, there is always a gain when you miss a thing. At night, few of us were stargazing for hour at the same place and saw meteor. =) Although we didn't get to see the sunrise (Did we face the wrong direction?), that sleepless night is those day will always be in my heart.

(Photos credit to Bing and YM)

Exam

Tomorrow... is the day

Happy Birthday Pinny

He is the one,

Who is there for me whenever I need him,

Who I can just randomly mumble without filtering my words,

Who knows I’ll fall and yet he encourage me to follow my heart,

Who support my decision even though I might be wrong,

Sometime, he is just like my dad,

Worry that I might be hurt yet he will let me go to grow,

He gave me the courage and belief in myself,

He is true to me, direct and honest,

Will praise me, scold me…

A true friend of mine…

Who claims himself my brother.

Brother Pinny, Happy Birthday.

May you all the best and love you always.

Stay cheers =)

random

This cute little baby here is my niece! 10th October baby, named Zi Ying. hehe. another Ying.. hopefully her daddy don't call her ah ying also.. I have so many ah ying in family d.. Sometime really don't know should I answer a not when someone call for ah ying. Will look for this cutie as soon as I get back M'sia.

Final exam in a week time.. progress? BAD.

Okay.. Sien.. Computing SIEN.. No idea how to go to exam hall with no tutorial available, with only ONE past year paper.. crap.. sigh..

Just realized I didn't mentioned about the MUMSU ball I went with my friends longgggg ago..

Let's show some you some random photos.

First of all, have to thanks my dear housemate Hilary, who shopped with us, helped us to make up, hair-do.. ALL by Hilary.

Devil, Master, Angel (L to R)

One of my favourite photos during the ball, thanks Jon. It looks like a candid shot, but is not. That's the reason why I was smiling.. haha.. coz of Jon.

This photo is bit dark, but is the best as other will overexpose the scenary behind. Can't remember what's that place call, but the bay behind is the Wineglass Bay at Tasmania. Is not easy to climb up that rock though.. just to take a photo.. haha..
Taken by my sis in the tulip farm I missed. Will definitely go there next year. Won't miss it again. ( Hopefully) Wish I could have see the real dog, miss my doggie lo..

My sis and I had this thick chocolaty brownies at Max Brennen during holiday. *Thumb up
This is currently number 1 in my list for chocolate bakery. Follow by the chocolate mud cake in Mornington.

Mentioned about chocolate, I made a chocolate cheesecake with my friend that day. It was just okay as we put too much butter for the base, bit salty. Easy jelak for that flavour. However, we realized this cake taste good after is fridge for few days. Maybe we should be more patient and wait for few days next time.

While waiting for the base to chilled, I baked double choc muffins as well. However, there are no more self-raising flour. Therefore, I changed my recipe to baking soda. Cin cin cai cai.. din follow the recipe ratio of ingredient as well. haha.. it turn out failed as muffin, bit overbaked as I was hoping it will be more 'cooked'. However, the guys love it. When you bite, the chocolate inside is still melting. Sounds like some chocolate lava cake. haha.. ya.. they like it, and asking me to bake that again. but.. since I cin cai mix and add ingredient myself that day, I not very sure of the ratio I mixed that day =P. haha.. not sure can I produce such 'failure product' again or not.

This last photo is a prove to show dad and mom. See, I got 'guai guai' wear mask although I am always-the-only-one wearing mask in the whole airport. So no worry about me. =)

Rice or diamond?

"A grain of rice or a carat of diamond?"

one month to go

One month to go for final exam, stll have Digital system report due next week, Oral presentation and final report of Experimental Project (40%), killing and LAST MATLAB report due next Friday and freaking Computing assignment + FEA due on 19th of October..

Never ending due dates going to come to an end, however no rest is allowed as final exam is coming so soon and I'm unprepared for it.

I have a day break today at Lindt's cafe with friend. We were the first customer of the day, and sat there until the cafe was going to end their day. Read something non-academic (finally), chit chat, some drinks and cakes.. it just made my day =) Thanks for the invitation.

Went Tasmania with friends and sister, it was an adventerous trip.. and we were pretty lucky I would say. Missed the tulip farm due to some reason. Is okay.. I'll go for it next year. Now, I'll just have to admire it through the photos took by my sis with her SLR camera. ( She made my friends want to get SLR by having one.)

Celebrated Mid-autumn festival with neighbour a.k.a mechatronic etc guys. Had a great night with lots of foods. Loved their salad, especially the dressing. Seldom have guys who are so good at preparing foods. =P We girls were just preparing dessert e.g. egg tarts, apple pie by my sis and etc. Other than that, we had mooncakes, chinese teas and lantern. haha. That's why is difficult to tell the difference for me, coz we were still celebrating just like back in M'sia, just without the parents and family. ( they burnt lantern for fun..)

Anyway, I am going back in 2 months time.. hehe.

miss mommy

While I was walking back home today...

I miss mom...

Whenever I have a long day in uni, I'll just rest in the car on the way back home...

where mom drive me home quietly...

back to life

I feeling ALIVE! =)

Gosh.. Finally I am back to life with WEEKEND!
Not the day by day.. hour by hour.. stay in computing lab.. campus life...
Became grumpy.. tire.. frustrated...zombie

Didn't get enough sleep;
Didn't get to sleep;
Can't sleep;
"coffee hangerover" (JY,2009) [copyright, according to JY]

Although there are more to come.. worse to be face...
and I am sorry for being such a rude person.
I knew but I can't control.=(

Feeling so much alive after getting 10 hours of sleep.
hehe 8pm to 6am.. such a pig =P
Changed bed sheet.. and I feel even more great =)

Thanks darling Su for the advices, for the talk.
Thanks for always by my side.
Love you so much.
Muacks. kiss3*

I shall enjoy my SATURDAY with books and TEA.
Have a nice day!

Back to my life! =)

matlab-ing

Okay.. why am I awake so early?

I was awake by 4am. still sick, having flu which caused me easily tire and sleepy. I fall into deep sleep early yesterday night when I was supposed to take a nap. :/ We always have a busy week ahead, the marathon lectures of Monday and Tuesday is superb tiring, however I managed to attend all. Just that it is harder for me to concentrate this week, even harder to struggle not to fall asleep - the reason I hate to fall sick. I think I couldn't even struggle with my eye lids this week, it just closed and go to dreamland in one second. People are telling me is pretty useless and waste of time to attend 'useless' lectures, is better to do something more 'beneficial', e.g. pratice more on computing stuff. I do practice my NX skill, just that I prefer to do it after class. Sometime or most of the time I do day dream in class, couldn't focus and etc, at least I do get something on and off through lectures.

Week 4 is ending soon and it is the week that begins the seem-infinite-endless-hell of due date every week. For example this week, we have a report due on Monday, an assignment due and test Wednesday and a MATLAB report on Friday. The reason why am I here? I am stuck at my m-file coding. Jacobi and SOR, one have too much input argument, one have too much output argument. Sigh. I shall just skip to cubic spline question.

The on-going Design 3 project seems scary, it got me worry about it all the time. Are we running out of time? Is my understanding about my part sufficient? Is the calculation alright? Do we progress too slow? Failure and etc.

A pretty helpless case happened last week during exam review, one of my units, need just 0.5 marks in the final paper to go to the next grade. Nothing can be done.

Alright, shall get back to matlab.
May everyone doing well and stay healthy!

Thanks mom

I am feeling quite a mess right now. Kind of blank on what should I do. Just feel like leaving my mind blank, staring at my laptop, lose focus and wait for bed time to strike. 12? 1am? Recently sleep at 11pm, and it seems too early for engineering students huh? Get many shock response when I wish others good night at 11pm.

Last semester's result is not good. Overall is better than the semester before, and I was relieved when I knew I passed all my papers. However, I knew I can do better, I caught panic in the exam hall and screwed up my papers. I knew it was caused by my lack of confidence of my understanding, slacked off too much during lectures/tutorials. Although I tried to catch up, I was not confident. What has passed is past, new semester and is time to move on.

In this new semester, I have promise to myself, no matter how bad, how boring is the class, I shall never skip class anymore. Not for any reason. There is always something to learn, I always believe every individual has something we can learn, even from a kid. Since the lecturer is able to be our LECTURER, the knowledge must be there, is really depends on our attitude and will of learning.Will find a way to survive through the long and continuous lecture hours.

This semester has some heavy workloads due to projects and lab reports, guess will be occupied by assignments. Will try to stay positive, get enough sleep, and keep on track of study to prevent the horrible nightmare.

Something mom always told us since young are so true, although she don't say that to me anymore.

" What you learn is what you get, you don't study for others, coz others won't gain benefit when you do"

" No matter how irrelevant you think what you learn to your future, or you might think it might not be useful or waste of time. However, you never know, the knowledge that you learn might appear to be useful one day."

Thanks Mom.

Happy Belated Birthday, Ping!

Something I should have post up last Saturday. >.<

Happy Belated Birthday, Wee Ping!

Since my exam over, I didn't chat with you much lately. I am sure there are a lot happening around M'sia, and I can't wait to hear from you soon. hehe.. and I got so much to tell you. I miss you. Skype with you soon k? Birthday's present will reach this year end. =) The "tim tam" just temporary gift.. =P

fool

Back from the trip loonnngggg ago.. hehe.. safe and sound, free from swine flu =P There are lots of photos, about 1.5k according to my sister. Lazy to pick it out. Will show to my dear friends when I get back M'sia. =) So be patient.

It is the beginning of week 2 by now, foresee that it will be a very busy semester compare to the relaxing previous semester. The lectures get bored as Monday has 4 hours continuous lectures follow by killing Tuesday 6 hours of lectures. 2 project based units this semester, many group works and presentation and LAB. Sigh.. stress semester.

Finally get a hold of the book "the secret" by Rhonda Byrne, thanks to my brother and parents. =)

Hairs are getting pretty long, shoulder length by now. Still can't decide how should I cut it. Should just cut it short? or trim it leave it long?

Just a short update.. hehee.. still lazy to blog..

We found something interesting on the notice board today.


Any ASIAN girl interested ? =P hehe.. some of the guy wanted to call and make fun of the fella though. or maybe is a poor guy fool by the friends.. haha..

Happy Holiday

Exam ended one week ago, it dragged so long that it seems never ending. Finally is over. Result coming out next Friday, just wish that I pass all the subjects ..

Watched Transformer 2 after exam, still prefers Transformer 1 though. haha.. However, Megan Fox looks hotter in Transformer 2. =P

Went Phillip Island and had a great time there. Lots of chocolate >.< and stayed in a very cosy house.. thanks to organizer!

Have been relaxing at home this few days... Holiday = rot at home. Yup.. so I rejected few invitation and relax at home.. haha.. Feel so piggie.. when I sleep more than 8 hours =P I was so lazy that I only watch drama, flip some novels.. everyday~ sigh.. Can't do this anymore when new semester start.

Okay.. I am even lazy to blog.. =P This post has been in the draft for some time.. hehe..
That's all. no worry. Still safe.. still healthy.. still alive... no swine flu =P

Going Sydney and Adelaide soon ~
Happy Holiday =)

Miss you and take care.

Pearlyn

I think most of you recognize her.. is Pearlyn Sin! I always think she is so brave to have the courage to stand out, to present herself.

To me, she is a very inspiring friend to have.. she live her life to the fullest and it seems nothing is impossible in this world for her =)

She is now the finalist of Most Wanted ruumate! If you do have the time, just a few click, do vote for her ok?

The following link is her blog.. and she will teach you how to vote for her =)

http://www.pearlynsin.com/

Appreciate... what you have

Appreciate

Recently received few forward emails that is quite inspiring.. Just want to share with you while I busy with my exam.

A guy with no arm.. no leg.. and yet..



and APPRECIATE....



To be awake by alarm clock early in the morning,
it means I'm still alive.



To pay the heavy electricity bill,
it means I'm enjoying the air-cond.



To get the furthest parking slot,
it means I'm still able to walk.. and to have a car.

I appreciate...



that I pay tax,
because it means I have a job.


that I have a lot of laundry work to do,
because it means I have clothes to wear.
the poor singing of the lady behind me in the church,
because it means I am still able to hear.



the grass to be mowed, the glasses to be cleaned and the un-repaired drain,
because it means I have a home.



the clothes getting tighter,
because it means I have been eating good food.


there are shadow accompanying me working,
because it means I am under the bright sun.


I appreciate ...
Lastly that the excessive amount of email I received,

because it means my friends are missing me. =)

Thanks Bernice for the email. =)
miss you..

and thanks YM for the video.